Just went for a debate tournament again. It is the National Novice Debating Championship 2011. A tournament for novices only and amateurs like me and all the first years. Lol. A great experience for me. I really learned a lot of things like I should get rid of my fears and think straight in any situations at all! Everyone did a good job in Novice and hopefully we will get better! :D
At times, I think back of the times when I was at school. The times when I got embarrassed when I was too nervous to speak on stage which I ended up crying for it, just made me smiled thinking of it now. Silly me.. And until now, I haven't really improved in anything but I am working on it. Lol.
That's all form me for now. So, don't be like me here. Just don't let anything get in your way. :)
Friday, February 25, 2011
Monday, February 21, 2011
Beyond my expectations
Work it, make it, do it, Makes us harder, better, faster, stronger!
Those who know me might be thinking that why am I listening to this old song out of a sudden. Plus, it is not the kind of song that I will play it if I can choose. The reason is simple; I just think that it suits me now. It's motivating me, really!
:)
Those who know me might be thinking that why am I listening to this old song out of a sudden. Plus, it is not the kind of song that I will play it if I can choose. The reason is simple; I just think that it suits me now. It's motivating me, really!
:)
Friday, February 18, 2011
Learning hurts
I have always thought that there is a limit to one's capability to learn something. Let it be a language, subject or skill. When you have reach it, you cannot get any further than that level. That is you and you are never going to pass that line because you will not be you anymore if you have passed it. You have maximized what you are capable of and that is enough for you..accept it.
I am wrong to even have that perception in mind. I should not doubt capability. There is just no limit to it. Why am I even thinking that I wont be able to do something when people around me seemed like they are just doing it right somehow? I can tell that I am just in a situation where I don't want to pay the price of the dress. The dress is so beautiful and I know that I want it because I think it looks good on me but I don't want to pay for it.
Once I have thought that cooking was impossible. Well, at least for me. To cook everyday was like a "No, No" to me but now, it is like a norm for me. I cook for most of my meals everyday! Yes, everyday! What I am trying to imply is that nothing is impossible because it is just our mental state that tells us that "Stop, I am done with it!" Of course, to learn something, you gotta pay the price for it and be patient. Once, you have done a mistake, it can be fixed and be taken as a lesson even if it is going to be painful. I have learnt that I cannot start putting the oil in the pan while there there are still some water in it, onions can help to reduce oil in food, steam cooks faster at times, use the rice cooker to save time, minced garlic is less of a hassle than fresh garlic, etc. Despite all of my lessons, I got some burns on my hands and yet, I am glad to say that "I can cook!"
No, I am not a victim of being abused but I am a victim of my own carelessness and stupidity in cooking.
Sharing some of my faillures in cooking:
Pictures above are just meant for laughs. :)
I am wrong to even have that perception in mind. I should not doubt capability. There is just no limit to it. Why am I even thinking that I wont be able to do something when people around me seemed like they are just doing it right somehow? I can tell that I am just in a situation where I don't want to pay the price of the dress. The dress is so beautiful and I know that I want it because I think it looks good on me but I don't want to pay for it.
Once I have thought that cooking was impossible. Well, at least for me. To cook everyday was like a "No, No" to me but now, it is like a norm for me. I cook for most of my meals everyday! Yes, everyday! What I am trying to imply is that nothing is impossible because it is just our mental state that tells us that "Stop, I am done with it!" Of course, to learn something, you gotta pay the price for it and be patient. Once, you have done a mistake, it can be fixed and be taken as a lesson even if it is going to be painful. I have learnt that I cannot start putting the oil in the pan while there there are still some water in it, onions can help to reduce oil in food, steam cooks faster at times, use the rice cooker to save time, minced garlic is less of a hassle than fresh garlic, etc. Despite all of my lessons, I got some burns on my hands and yet, I am glad to say that "I can cook!"
No, I am not a victim of being abused but I am a victim of my own carelessness and stupidity in cooking.
Sharing some of my faillures in cooking:
Pictures above are just meant for laughs. :)
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Today was a fairytale
It was Valentine's Day yesterday and yes, love was in the air! The title doesn't suggest that I'm the girl in the the fairytale. I just thought it suits the lovely atmosphere. Lol. It is a day for everyone to celebrate love regardless of whether u are taken or not. To all the couples, appreciate this day and celebrate it everyday even if it's not Valentine's. To all the singles out there, you are also part of this day and let your loved ones know that you care for them!As for me, I spent time with my friends. We went to Pavillion and watch a movie after our end module exam which I thought I have done badly this time. Anyway, I tried not to think about it as it would have just spoiled the whole idea of having fun later. This Valentine was meaningful as I learned a few things. So what have I have learned? XD
1. Be thoughtful and caring coz you would have just made someone's day.
2. Appreciate everyone around you coz you won't know what's gonna happen next.
3. Be honest to everyone and more importantly to yourself.
4. Think about your parents during this day too.
5. It is not all that bad being single coz it just means that you haven't met your special someone.
6. A gift can be something not so material and probably that is the best Valentine gift ever.
7. Giving in and be more open minded make you a better person.
8. Seeing others feeling good about themselves makes you happy too.
9. Being patient is the hardest thing to do but it is worth.
10. Celebrate love everyday! <3
That's all from me for this Valentine's Day!
Thursday, February 10, 2011
One after another
When I just got to know about something that had turned me down or failed me, another thing that is similar came by. It has been like that for the past few days. It's like I get things when I don't expect. When I hope for something to happen, that something won't take place but another thing that was pretty much the same will take place instead. The "same" here meaning that I don't mind settling with it or a much better explaination is that I am satisfied with it as well.
As for yesterday, I went for the office hours for my programming subject for the exam, I saw my GSI and another IA who have been helping me out for the past few projects. I went and seeked help from my GSI fearing that he might not like it if I do not ask him instead. So, I went to him. He was helpful when I approached him for the first time but as for the second time, he told me straight that he was about to leave in 2 seconds when in fact, he has 5 minutes left. The thing that made me doubted his willingness or sincerity to teach was when I saw him still sitting there doing his own thing like surfing the web. I have expected more of him, maybe. I won't take much of his time for just one question. I knew that he was blunt and brutal in lab but I didn't know that he would be like that for office hours as well. As I remembered that he once told a girl when she was asking too much, "Seriously, I don't give a shit about you for not finishing your lab work. As long as you turn up in class and leave when the class ends, I am fine with it".
When my GSI took off, I was still there sitting and studying. The IA was so nice that he actually came over and ask if I needed help before he left. Unlike my GSI, he tried to look at my question. Although he didn't managed to explain it much in depth, I respected him for trying to help me out. Upon leaving though, he had left his material on my table, I immediately took it and went to the stairs where he had went hoping to catch up with him. Lucky that, he realized it and he came back down from the stairs.
When I was about to leave the library though, I bumped into Zera's friend, David who is majoring in Computer Science. He too asked me if I needed any help for programming when he got to know that my exam the next day. He tried to help on the similar question but I guess I will take it as I just don't get it. When I was about to end that day, it was pretty late and one of my friends asked me why wasn't I asleep yet and after a few minutes, another friend of mine ask the exact question.
As for today, my day started with Chemistry and English. In English class, I got my short paper back and I did good in it. A few hours later, I got an email from my Chem GSI that he would be waiting for us to collect our report. I went to collect it and the grade wasn't that good. I think he is parsimony in terms of giving marks. For some reason, I felt like he was bias. Anyway, after my exam today, I got to know my project scores. I got my grades for one subject after another. It's like one after another as well like yesterday. Weird and creepy...
As for yesterday, I went for the office hours for my programming subject for the exam, I saw my GSI and another IA who have been helping me out for the past few projects. I went and seeked help from my GSI fearing that he might not like it if I do not ask him instead. So, I went to him. He was helpful when I approached him for the first time but as for the second time, he told me straight that he was about to leave in 2 seconds when in fact, he has 5 minutes left. The thing that made me doubted his willingness or sincerity to teach was when I saw him still sitting there doing his own thing like surfing the web. I have expected more of him, maybe. I won't take much of his time for just one question. I knew that he was blunt and brutal in lab but I didn't know that he would be like that for office hours as well. As I remembered that he once told a girl when she was asking too much, "Seriously, I don't give a shit about you for not finishing your lab work. As long as you turn up in class and leave when the class ends, I am fine with it".
When my GSI took off, I was still there sitting and studying. The IA was so nice that he actually came over and ask if I needed help before he left. Unlike my GSI, he tried to look at my question. Although he didn't managed to explain it much in depth, I respected him for trying to help me out. Upon leaving though, he had left his material on my table, I immediately took it and went to the stairs where he had went hoping to catch up with him. Lucky that, he realized it and he came back down from the stairs.
When I was about to leave the library though, I bumped into Zera's friend, David who is majoring in Computer Science. He too asked me if I needed any help for programming when he got to know that my exam the next day. He tried to help on the similar question but I guess I will take it as I just don't get it. When I was about to end that day, it was pretty late and one of my friends asked me why wasn't I asleep yet and after a few minutes, another friend of mine ask the exact question.
As for today, my day started with Chemistry and English. In English class, I got my short paper back and I did good in it. A few hours later, I got an email from my Chem GSI that he would be waiting for us to collect our report. I went to collect it and the grade wasn't that good. I think he is parsimony in terms of giving marks. For some reason, I felt like he was bias. Anyway, after my exam today, I got to know my project scores. I got my grades for one subject after another. It's like one after another as well like yesterday. Weird and creepy...
Monday, February 7, 2011
All my life I've been good but now~
The AMSEP group picture! Recently I was involved in the Asian Medical Student Exchange Program. It was before Chinese New Year. I made new friends who are from Indonesia (Amel, Adel, Ivan, Hans, Raymond, Rico and Sulae) and got closer to the other AMSEP members which I thought was a really great experience. Obviously I can't be able to write down all the details so I will just say it was really enjoyable and at the end of the day, I didn't regret joining this program at all. I hope they had fun in Malaysia and really wish I could meet them again probably in other programs. :)
Then came CNY. As usual, we went visiting. Watched the adults gambled. Collected angpows. Went to grandpa's house for breakfast and dinner everyday. Met up with other family members and family friends. Watched movies. Lol. I think this is pretty short and simple.
The title is just something random. Just thought that it suits my mood. I felt like just doing something I feel right without caring about the consequences and what others might think. I guess you would have known. It's Avril Lavigne's "What the Hell." So, that's all from me! :D
Thursday, February 3, 2011
CNY 2011
Yes, it is the day of the year again where the all Chinese are celebrating the new year. The thing is that I wasn't all that sad and mushy or feeling homesick about it which I find it a little weird being that I have always been looking forward to this day ever since when I was little.
Why am I not feeling excited about it this year? Is it because that I have already accepted the fact that I would be missing a whole lot of things in CNY? I won't be getting the angpows, eating the huge variety of cookies, the sweet mandarin oranges, and also the crispy prawn crackers, visiting relatives and friends and not to forget, shopping! None of those for this year and probably, for the next few years to come.
Maybe my excitement was drained away by the midterms, projects and assignments. Knowing that I have so much to do might have shifted my focus to work instead of CNY. Or could it possibly be the atmosphere here? The fact that there were no CNY decoratives in the streets, not even a CNY advertisement seen and plus, the people around me who would be talking about CNY are just so few that the "Oh, I can't wait for CNY!!!" statement did not even ring a bell in my head.
In facebook, my friends have started wishing me and tagging pictures of CNY during the last week in the month of January. Some of them have even started wishing me by the end of January. I was sure that CNY was around the corner but not I wasn't exactly sure about the exact date..Because of the unclarified date, I had almost believed that it was CNY on 31st January when one of my friends said that "Hey, today is CNY! Not doing anything special?" I was like "CNY is today?" It was pretty clear that I am not even sure when CNY was because I didn't even care to know or more in precise, I didn't even think of CNY until then.
Eventually, I have clarified the exact date with my mum and a few of my friends in skype. When I got to know that CNY falls on the 3rd February, the first thing that I did was to check my planner if I was having exams or assignments due...HAHAHA! Even though I did not have the enthusiasm in me for this year's CNY, I know that deep down, I would want to celebrate it if I am still in Malaysia.
Looking back at my previous post on CNY last year, I sounded really excited and I even remembered every detail of what had happened..HAHAHA! And, this CNY post is such a contrast to it.
Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year and happy holidays to those who are fortunate enough to celebrate CNY with excitement and joy! :)
Why am I not feeling excited about it this year? Is it because that I have already accepted the fact that I would be missing a whole lot of things in CNY? I won't be getting the angpows, eating the huge variety of cookies, the sweet mandarin oranges, and also the crispy prawn crackers, visiting relatives and friends and not to forget, shopping! None of those for this year and probably, for the next few years to come.
Maybe my excitement was drained away by the midterms, projects and assignments. Knowing that I have so much to do might have shifted my focus to work instead of CNY. Or could it possibly be the atmosphere here? The fact that there were no CNY decoratives in the streets, not even a CNY advertisement seen and plus, the people around me who would be talking about CNY are just so few that the "Oh, I can't wait for CNY!!!" statement did not even ring a bell in my head.
In facebook, my friends have started wishing me and tagging pictures of CNY during the last week in the month of January. Some of them have even started wishing me by the end of January. I was sure that CNY was around the corner but not I wasn't exactly sure about the exact date..Because of the unclarified date, I had almost believed that it was CNY on 31st January when one of my friends said that "Hey, today is CNY! Not doing anything special?" I was like "CNY is today?" It was pretty clear that I am not even sure when CNY was because I didn't even care to know or more in precise, I didn't even think of CNY until then.
Eventually, I have clarified the exact date with my mum and a few of my friends in skype. When I got to know that CNY falls on the 3rd February, the first thing that I did was to check my planner if I was having exams or assignments due...HAHAHA! Even though I did not have the enthusiasm in me for this year's CNY, I know that deep down, I would want to celebrate it if I am still in Malaysia.
Looking back at my previous post on CNY last year, I sounded really excited and I even remembered every detail of what had happened..HAHAHA! And, this CNY post is such a contrast to it.
Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year and happy holidays to those who are fortunate enough to celebrate CNY with excitement and joy! :)
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