Just a Dream~

Now I got addicted to this song. Thanks to Pauline. lol. Anyway it is a nice song! :D
Enjoy!

Intentions?

Must every actions that we do have intentions or just mainly dependent on our wants? Is it possible for us to just do something just for the sake of helping others without hoping for rewards in the short run and also in the long run? I had these thoughts in mind but a friend of mine told me that maybe I was thinking too much and was being paranoid. He said that most probably, others weren't treating me nice hoping for a reward or anything beyond a friendship. At first, he sounded reasonable but still, I do not agree with him entirely because I believe that there should be a purpose in anything at all. He did managed to made me think that I was wrong back then because the issues that I had in mind were only entirely based on my intuition and feelings. As time passes, others begin to ask me if there was something going on and I turned out speechless knowing that my initial gut wasn't all that wrong after all. My solely based instincts somehow begin to make much more sense to me than they have ever been before. I want to believe that I was wrong and kept on insuring myself that there are still possibilities that I am not all that right because I do not have a solid prove or justification. Honestly, I want to believe it but then, it was not the first that I have came across this sort of thing and there should be a reason for me feeling that way. Feelings won't come uneasy if it's the right person doing the right thing at the right time. As for me,everything felt so out of placed and it doesn't seem right at all.

Just plain moody

The sky looked so gloomy and moody..I was somehow affected by the atmosphere as well. Everything seemed so greyish, blurry and unlively..The day ended so early..I felt like it was 8pm when it was just 6pm..The day seemed so short and nothing was bright.:(
Probably I am a person who likes the sunshine better? Just like the weather, I was not in the mood for a lot of things. I just want to have some time for myself..spacing out for a moment as one of my friends have told me. Spacing out isn't all that good either because lonely was what I have felt. I don't know why would this happened..mood swings, I am guessing. I want to be alone but I am afraid of being alone. GOSH! I know it's stupid because I have contradicting thoughts and wants. Maybe I am just plain moody. I want to see the sun shine now if possible!

Lets hope that it will get better. I don't want to be affected by the weather. Can't wait to see the sunshine.

Sleeping late + snooze button = late for class

Although I had a very tiring day yesterday with the excruciating calculus exam, studying chemistry with my study group, celebrating sin yi's birthday and finishing up my written homework for calculus(Although, I thought that I will finish it, I have one question left because I was unsure how to do it), I was wide awake until 3am or 4am..I am not sure why but I am guessing that maybe because I was hungry..hahaha..I know that I should be sleeping early because I have a class at 9am but I can't help it..I was not sleepy. Around 4.30am, I finally went to bed and sleep.

Before I knew it, the alarm started to ring..it was 7.30am. I hit the "snooze" and continue my sleep..I woke up after a while and realised that it was already 8.50am!!! It turned out that I hit the close button instead of the "snooze" button..I thought I did hit the right one..yea, for the first time in Ann Arbor, I woke up late but I can't miss that class because I had to hand in my written homework. (btw, many thanks to zera for letting me to use the bathroom..I really really appreciate it) :)

I went in the class and asked my instructor about the last question that I have not completed. After the class, here I am writing this post while trying to upload the photos but facebook is giving trouble in uploading the pics..:/

Lesson learnt: never hit the snooze button again! pauline, wake up! :P

Lucky?

A song that keeps on playing in my mind. Just want to share my thoughts..:)
Although it's not a recent song, the lyrics somewhat kept me thinking about maybe being on top is not all that lucky after all.