When Sharing Means Caring

I kinda realized that I was being very selfish last night and also this morning. XP.. I hate to admit that but I feel really guilty. After thinking about it, I thought it was just a small matter. I made someone unhappy when she was supposed to be like enjoying herself that night.

I didn't mean to be the bad person but I just couldn't help it. Have you ever came across a situation where you had to give up something that means a lot to you temporarily to one of the most important people in your life because they really need it at that point of time? In other words, sacrificing something important for someone important.

The answer is obvious. Of course you would. That was what I did but I was reluctant to actually. Unfortunately, the person who asked me for it was her, the girl at the left side of the picture above. Honestly, I would say yes for her for anything at all and even if I can't, I willl try my best to help her.

The problem arised when I kept complaining about it. Then, she felt guilty and she wasn't all that excited already that night. She even broke into tears after that. I felt so bad. :S

The moral of the story, do not spoil another person's day by being so selfish and, be sincere when you wanna share something with other people. :)

The clinic

I think it was a few weeks back since my second last visit to the clinic nearby our house. That clinic was a 24-hour clinic. I went there with our dad. Since our family members are frequent patients, the doctor himself agreed on placing all of our names in a family card in order to ease up the registration when we visit.

After a week later, my sis got sick and she too went to the same clinic. The difference was that my sis and I went there with my mum. When we got there, I remembered about the familay card thing. I told the nurse that she could find our family card and not my sis's card. The weird thing was that the family card was supposed to help out the system but in fact, it didn't. We waited for at least half an hour for the nurse to find my sis's card and the family card was no where to be found..haha. Eventually, we just went in the doctor's room without the family card and use the individual ones instead. After all, the most important thing is not the card but my sis's health.

Yesterday, unfortunately, I have visited the same clinic because I got some rashes on my body. I went there with my dad and he knows about the family card too. So, he told the nurse to find the same old family card. Guess what? History has repeated itself again. The nurse could not find the family card. To be truthful, I was rather pissed. It was not the first time that this was happening and they can't even create a new card after knowing that the 'old card' was no where to be found. I thought that the nurses or at least the doctor would have initiated a new card for my family but the doctor chose to put the blame on the nurses. He even told my dad and I that he didn't like the nurses because they were not good in organizing the work.

I hope that the clinic will be more efficient in our next visit. No more history to be repeated AGAIN..haha.

Now, its my turn

If you think being a parent is easy, think again..haha. Yes, I think I understand a little now because its my turn to take over my mum's job and that is to take care of her. My mum just went for her operation on Tuesday and she has yet to recover which means to be able to do her own daily routines. She is at home taking a break from her work. And yes, my bro and I have to look after her for the time being eversince when she had her operation.

My bro is not involved in the petty things like washing and cleaning..he is more of a driver for now..I am not as sensitive or should I say aware as my mum is. She thinks of everything that I have never thought of. For example, she would put all the clothes in the washing machine according to colors and she will leave the clothes drenched in the washing machine for one night unlike me who would just dump everything in that machine and push the start button..hahaha. I think that she has learned from her experience and that is why she is being so meticulous about everything.

She would be watching me as I follow her instructions doing the household chores..To be honest, I don't like being watched because I don't think she will agree with what I want to do and I feel pressurized at times when she says "Its okay, I will do it"..I feel like I am of no use when she says that..can't help it..haha..XD
Now, I realized that she might have felt the exact feeling when I say "Its ok, I will do it myself" when I told her about my problems and I can imagine that my own kid was telling me that but I can't be of much help. The same thing goes with my mum. It must have hurt her so much..plus, she has three children..so, its times three and I have not counted the years..haha..ok, I shall stop the calculation..it only makes me feel guilty.

Since she is unable to carry out some chores, I think I can be helpful for her in many ways. I really want to help but I can't do most of the things the way I want to because she will be watching me..so, that means that I got to be more careful..hahaha..:S
For now, I will just follow her orders although I don't really agree. I am learning to be more patient and independent in a way too. Love you, mum! :)

Another one, maybe?

The other day when I hang out with my friends, Yeng and Debbie, we were in Pavillion. I wanted to get myself some gold accessories and we ended up in Diva. I finally got myself two pairs of ear rings(one pair is black and the other is gold), Debbie got herself a huge and pretty ring and Yeng got herself some ear rings too. We were in diva for quite a long time.

As usual Debbie and I have chose ours and we were waiting for Yeng to choose hers. She was so undecided on which ear rings to get for herself. There we were like three idiots standing there looking at the ear rings and commenting on them hoping that Yeng would make up her mind on which to choose..hahaha..most of them were cute but the package is to buy at least 3 pairs for RM20++..some of them had 4 to 6 pairs. Then, we thought of sharing some pairs to make it more worthy but we all know that only some pairs were nice and some were just so-so. Of course, all the packages have some nice ones and the so-so's..hahaha..it was hard to please everyone.

There were some pairs which needed more piercing in the ears to match all of the ear rings together. After that, we even came out with a suggestion to go for another piercing..I was ok with it initially but later, I have some doubts in my mind about it..haha..my mum didn't mind it at all but I am afraid that people might change their perception towards me about this matter. For me, it is worth to try it because it would not harm me or anything but thinking that I might have a bad first impression in the future really hit me a little..XD
Eventually, it is up to me to make this decision and now, I am up for it and see if it will be worthy. I will not know if I don't right?

Bigger Than What I've Imagine

Finally I am back from the orientation week and also the PPD Camp. The orientation was held at the Bangi campus. Sadly to say that I won't be studying in this huge campus but I will be at the Kuala Lumpur campus instead. The picture above was taken in a place called DECTAR in UKM Bangi during the cultural night event from my view where the all the choir people were.

I was part of the choir team during the orientation week. Initially, I wasn't sure of what I should take part in as there were so many performances in the list. I had a few peferences in my mind and honestly, one of them was choir. It was a great experience being part of the choir team at that moment.

I was glad to spot some KMK people here in UKM. Seeing them reminds me so much about the times I had in KMK especially when I saw Allana and Peh Ge. Along the way, I met some new friends who are very friendly. Most of them are from matriculation and only a few are STPM grads.

After orientaton in Bangi, it wasn't really an end for the medical students. Yup, we had to attend a camp in Ulu Kenas where there wasn't any network coverage in that place. We were fed a LOT of times a day. My group members and the facilitators of my group are awesome! I really had fun XD.. Spider, that was the name of my group. Hehe..

I really learned a lot of things in that camp. Love Group 6 so much! There were a lot of activities like jungle trekking, talks, personality test, debate, sketch and many more. I'm still feeling tired even though the camp was over yesterday itself already. Hence, that's all for my post aboout UKM! ;D

A day with people

Yesterday, I woke up at 6.30am for my Visa interview and I was ready before 7.15am. I tried to woke my dad up to send me to the US embassy but he being his stubborn self only got up around 7.30am and was ready by 7.40am. I was scared that I might be late that I didn't even finish my breakfast. My interview is at 8.20am. Lucky, I reached there about 8.00am and started to que up like everyone else there.

When I got into the security house of the US embassy, I was told to take my handphone and anything metallic out. So, I did but I was not really fast as I was nervous. "Faster, faster! That's why everything went slow because of people like you who didn't prepare all your things before coming in!" the lady security guard screamed at me. I was shocked that she reacted in that manner. She need not screamed at me for something that I didn't want to. I tried to be fast. :S

When I got into the US embassy, I followed a family in front of me and sat in front of them by myself. A few minutes later, I changed my sit to sit next to other people who was alone as well. Then, I saw a friend of mine in Uniten, Chok! We chatted for a while and he told me that he saw another friend of ours in Uniten, Nicholas..hahaha. What a small world!

Our conversation ended when my number was called and I didn't get to meet Nicholas. After registering in the counter, I tried to find for a seat nearby the interview counter and I saw another friend of mine from Uniten and is going to UMich as well, Anita! She looked so happy when she saw me too because we both know that its bored while waiting for our numbers to be called. We even met some of our soon-to-be seniors in UMich. We talked about how things might be like in Michigan and about Uniten's stuffs until Anita's number was called. After Anita went off, the lady who sat next to me started to talk to me. Here goes the conversation:

Lady: So, its your first time going to US? You are going to study there, I suppose?
Me: Yea. How about you?
Lady: Oh, I am going there for my honeymoon. :)
Me: That's nice! Where to?
Lady: I am going to Purto Rico. So, where did you go for school?
Me: Convent Sentul.
Lady: That was my school too. So, where do you live?
Me: Some where nearby Sentul.
Lady: Which part?
Me: Jalan Ipoh if you have heard of it.
Lady: Me too! Where in exact?
Me: Really?! hahahaaha..Kampung Kasipillay.U too?
Lady: Yea. Which road? :)
Me: Lorong Manggis. Yours?
Lady: Jalan Mangga. Is your mum in the line dance group?
Me: (She knows me? lol in my mind) Yea, she is..
Lady: I was there too but I quit because of my knee. You look like your mother. :)
Me: haha..:)

After the interview, my dad picked me up and insisted in stopping by in Wisma Sime Darby to get the medical check up form. So, we did. I called Kak Intan and I managed to get her after calling for the second time. The day got even weirder when I saw my junior in the same restaurant in which I had my lunch..hahaha..XD
I met so many people that day: the people in my secondary school, my sponsor, my uniten friends, UMich people to the people living in my area. There were just too many yesterday..hahaha..:D

Its just too early

Last Sunday, I went for my cousin's wedding. It was not the grand type of wedding. It was more of a simple one. Not much people attended the wedding but I got to say that it was probably the most nicely decorated one compared to the other weddings that I have been too.

My family and I have arrived early. So, we got to see the place with barely any guests around. It was nice and beautiful with the some peace. Although the place was not big, it was pleasant to the eye. Honestly, I like it.

Looking at the groom(my cousin) and the bride reminded that I might be in their shoes one day but definitely not in these few years to come. Will I even have one? I have always imagine mine to be the luxurious type, held in a hotel, dressed up waiters and waitressess, nice romantic lightings, bright with flowers and so on.

Now to think of it..I think I was just dreaming. By the time, I will be thinking of the cost, food and guests instead of the looks if it. Talking about the guests, many must be invited. There are so many sides to think of..the bride's mum's side, the bride's dad's side, the groom's mum's side, the groom's dad's side and all that are just the families...what about the friends of both groom and bride? There are school mates, college friends, co-workers, and also some of the parents' friends...hahaha..

Then, I went on thinking about having short speeches and performances but its sort of impossible..hahaha..knowing that there some traditions that are needed to be followed. One moment after all the thinking in my mind, I felt like an idiot..Why should I think about it now..Its not my main concern for now anyway..hahaha..So, I stop myself from thinking too far ahead..I am still young and things might have change by then,the best way is that I should put that aside and not think of it..XD

Missing her already

I guess its obvious that I meant my sis..I just sent her off today in UKM for her orientation and seeing her so excited about everything just reminds me that I will be going to my university soon..haha..I should get use to it anyway since I will be leaving Malaysia soon. So, it could be a good start for now. Life is bored when we have nothing to do and I am feeling it right now. I really miss having her around eventough she can be really annoying at times. She can be sweet for a minute and mean in the next..haha.

Honestly, its kinda lonely without her around. Although I can have the room all by myself, not having her to use my things and not put them back in the original place, using her bed to put my stuff, not having her to block my way in the room, I still want her here at home..XD

Yea, its a selfish thought but I have to say that this is just one of my wants and not my needs. I know that it is not easy to let things go easily when you are hooked towards it. I realized that I actually care for her so much that I do not even realize at times. I do not mind doing her a favor when I can tell that she wants something although she did not mention it straight in the face. Mostly, what she wants is what I want. So, yea..I know what she wants..hahaha..telepathy? I don't think so..maybe more like a similarity in terms of thinking..hahaha.

Talking about her preparing for her university, I am not very keen of it. She needs to go for medical check ups and also the part that I did not really like is that she needs to get a specific type of baju kurung..haih..Don't get me wrong. I have nothing against baju kurung. Personally I think that baju kurung is a nice outift and I even had one myself but I just don't get why the university wants her to get a specific type..Ok, maybe for protocol purposes and all but still, I was a little pissed deep inside after going to so SO many shops for so SO many days just to search for this particular type..omg! It has taken the toll out of me. For me, sometimes the dress code can get a little ridiculous..She even said that its ok to just get her one but I know that in her mind, she wanted two at least..haha.

We finally got two baju kurung that met the requirements after all the searching. Unfortunately, one of that baju kurung was torn after the ironing and it happened a day before her orientation..So, she only had one left. That pissed me off even more..It was not even my business but I was angry..can't help it..hahaha..After sending her off for her orientation, my mum, my bro and I went to the shops again to get her another one and being her identical twin, I need to try it out..haih...thank god, we eventually got one! :D

I want her to be around all the time now..I am super bored at home. I don't mind doing all those searching again with my sis if I could..after all, she will always be my little sista! :D


just a picture of us when we were younger..hahaha..identical?

The 10 Sisters and Their Elders

This is my first time blogging about my family in KMK. The beautiful drawing above is obviously not drawn by me. It is of course drawn by my youngest sister, Yi Ting..XD.. I am not very sure how this family tree was formed but I think it's because we were stuck with one another in the beginning.

According to Fiona, it started in the Pentaque Competition in KMK. By the way, pentaque is a traditional game. I only found out about this family when EJ called me 'da jie' when I came into her room one night. I didn't know what 'da jie' means that time but now I know..:P..

After that day, I have 9 little adorable sisters. In real life, I was the youngest among my siblings so, I didn't know what it feels like being the eldest sibling. Nice experience being the 'da jie'. hehehe.. Even though we aren't real sisters, I felt the bond. It's just different or I am weirdo. Lol..

Anyway, our family grew. We have a 'Mummy' and a 'Grandma',our elders..XD.. Don't get me wrong. It's not like their old or anything. In fact, they are the good looking elders. Then, we have 'Daddy' and also 'Gonna-Be-Brother-In-Laws'. Well, the family tree changes as time flies. Wonder what it would be like? Hmm..

I have just realized that I didn't mention any names. Lol.. Mummy is Daphenie. Grandma is Wei Ling. The sisters in order: Me, EJ, Hui Yi, Xuan Lin, Allana, Ying Sze, Peh Ge, Adeline, Fiona and Yi Ting. Yup, that's about it!

I hope in times to come, we will still see each other and have a family gathering. I appreciate the times we had together and hopefully, we will keep in touch. If you are part of this family tree and you are reading this, I just wanna say 'All the best! Take care! Love ya! Will miss ya!' We will all be going to university soon but don't forget KMK, the place we met ;D

Our happy family! :)