You've got a friend in me

Someone who would be willing to listen to all your complaints even if it's the smallest detail in your life. Someone who you could talk to and not be embarrassed about your true feelings. Someone who knows you too well that they would notice when you are really depressed even through that big fat smile on your face. Someone who you wouldn't mind sharing your things with even when you need to share it with them. Someone who knows when to pat you on your shoulder or give you a hug. Someone so thoughtful and sometimes it makes you believe that kind people really do exist. Someone who would stand up for you no matter what. Someone who would be willing to give honest opinions and not be afraid to hurt you because they know you would not. Someone who seeks for you just to tell you crazy stories and be willing enough to do silly things with you. Someone who would be willing to share their problems with you because they trust you so much. Someone who you can really count onto and you know they would have done the same thing in a particular situation. Someone who is proud and happy enough to call you their friend. :)

Friends, no?

Today, I am officially done with the semester. I am not so proud of the essay but it is completed! Yay! So, I was indulging myself with Grey's Anatomy for the past few weeks now and still ongoing..haha! For the past few days, I looked at the my more recent pictures and I didn't like my hair..not that it is awful but it was bad for me. Looking at the split ends and the worn-off color on my hair due to the dye several years ago, I decided to cut them off sometime this week. Ok, those were the updates. Now, back to what I want to write about in this post. Well, I was thinking about my enemies and was not able to name one person. It was probably because I didn't think they were hostile to me in any ways. In most of the bad occurrences or happenings, I find myself being the one who apologizes and forgives. Truth to be told, I can never hate someone for so long. Even if I dislike them for some reason, I would just opt to avoid and keep some distance. If something bad took place between any of my friend and I, the worse that could ever happen was not talking for days, weeks or months and that was it, things would eventually get better and we start talking. Unfortunate enough for me, I have one of my friendships being at the halt state for more than a year already. Not that I wanted it too but I think my friend had stopped calling me a friend. Although I am not emotionally affected by it for quite a long time already, I still wonder if she have thought of us and the memories, stories and times that we shared. I did my part in trying to salvage our friendship but maybe, it was not as effective as I thought it would be. I wondered if she would say Hi to me at least if we ever met. I mean wouldn't it be rude if she doesn't? She can annoy me by not even trying to be nice in any way but nothing was ever going to change the fact that we were friends at some point of our lives and those times can't be erased just like that. Sure, you can say time would change things for the better but how long? I still want to know about what was going on in her life and I'd lie if I say I don't care. One thing that I really hope is that we could at least meet or if the worst have to happen, I hope that we would end it in a mutual way rather than just one-sided.

New look

For these past few days, I was trying to get a new look for this blog but I can't just take the old template out..It was supposed to be easy but I guess it is default now..Oh well, I think it looks simple enough now. Now that the semester is coming to an end, I will be having some free time before my work starts. I have a lot in things in mind that I want to do. For instance : -exercising (purpose is to lose weight) -reading some nice books -shopping (for summer wear..everything is just so hot now and most of my clothes aren't suitable) -watching Grey's Anatomy (this in inevitable..lol..maybe I will try to find mai-hime and watch it again) -cooking (purpose is to save money as well) -a little bit of travelling (to somewhere nearby..not too far) -catching up with family and friends I guess that is all for the time being but I am planning to get at least most of these things done. Oh ya, I have a wonderful news today! I finally got a B+/A- range for my essay in which I only spent one whole day on it..and I do mean literally one whole day, 24 hours. Alright then, that is all I want to write on this post. Shall keep updating later. :)

It has been a while..maybe too long

The last time I posted something on this blog was like months ago and now, everything in blogspot has changed...A bit more tidy but alien to me, obviously! Oh well, life goes on and so does my blog. This semester has been the least stressful and surprisingly, a slow semester as compared to the previous two semesters. A lot of things were going on and hence, no postings from me..only from my sister..and I was the one who dragged her into blogging with me! Sorry, sis! I have been addicted to Grey's Anatomy lately and I have finished season one and in the middle of season two now. Watch it if you like drama or if you like to hear about any interesting medical conditions and advises about life which sometimes you might find them relevant to your's. Oh ya, I found a job as well..my very first paying job after tutoring for a day..haha! I am going to help out with orientation for the new international students in the university. I can't wait to start, to be honest! That's really all I can think of writing on this blog..:P Alright then, time for me to sleeppppppp. :)

A new start

Here I am in HUKM for almost a month already! I got the excitement of facing the real things rather than medical books only after a couple of weeks here. I blamed the papers I had to take during the holidays. Probably that's why the transition took way longer in me myself. Not to mention that I am really glad for passing the papers at the end because the process of going through them all over again was like a painful heartache. Unimaginable and I will probably remember this for the rest of my life. No doubt. I sincerely wanna thank those who helped me through this. Thanks really! :)

I even managed to take part in a debate tournament last week. The first international tournament for me. A great one. :) Not like I accomplished anything there nor was I satisfied with my own performance, I guess it's the experience that counts. Yea, whatever. Haha.

So, back to how I feel about being n this whole new environment, ermm.. okay I guess. I don't know how to say this but I guess a bad memory will always remain a scar deep within yourself. No matter how much you wanna disguise it, it's still there to remind you about the bad stuff. People say clinical years are much, much, much more different and all. To me, I really wish I could make it through even though I was terrible in my pre-clinical years. Take this as a challenge and a test to better myself. For better, for worse, I am here for whatever it is.:)