Leaving soon again!

Yes, I am going back to Ann Arbor in a few hours time..less than 24 hours. I am not so excited to get back though. One reason is that I love to be at home and the other is that I have a lot to do when I am back. Plus, I am pretty lucky for not getting into hurricane irene while travelling. To be truthful, I am worried as I have a transit in JFK..but I think it should be fine now. To think of it, I think I am lucky enough to have avoided it because I could have been in one of those earlier flights.

Well, moving in is a hassle for me but that's ok because I only brought one big luggage and two hand carries..as for salvaging the things in my friend's apartment, I think I would be doomed without a car if there are a lot of things to save from..so here comes my contradicting thoughts..At one side of my mind, I was thinking like I don't have to waste money buying things again if they are not damaged but another part of me was hoping that not much things are saved because I will be having trouble moving those things around. In fact, I can actually take the bus but it would be several trips and the sad thing is that I can't drive even though I have the zip car card..how sad is that..now, regrets came flowing in myself for not improving my driving skills and getting a license in the States..:/

Ok, I am not going to drain myself with the bad vibes. So, lets hope for the best! I will get through these even if they are hard. Yay, positivity now! :D

When things didn't seem to be normal

It's easy to complain about things when you're unhappy about it. Well, at least that's what I do when I'm unhappy about things. Lol. I always thought that was how being honest to others should be. I kinda think that it helps me to be honest with myself as well.

Not everyone shares their problems with everyone. That's a well-known fact but what about not sharing your problems with anyone at all but yourself? I think that's rather harmful not only to yourself but also to the rest around you. Worst thing that could happen is that you will end up being in the mess all by yourself. Hatred comes in when nobody ask you about it and you hope for someone to be there to just listen to you. When hatred takes over you, you start blaming others for being inconsiderate.

I believe we can't be very attentive or concern about every little thing that's happening in others' lives. That's why we have family, friends and a whole lot of others who are around us. Always remember that you are a part of everyone's lives as well.

So, if you do have problems, then say it out loud to someone. Don't just keep it to yourself. The others on the hand gotta be willing enough to listen coz someday you might be the one needing someone to listen to you. Be considerate and start appreciating everyone around you.

Just a random thought. :)

Colors again

I am addicted in making this flower again. I knew how to make it since I was in my secondary years. I even remembered that I found this in the internet while searching for "sakura flower". With the intention of developing a Japanese themed for my sports house, I really think that this flower would make a good match for it. I still recalled that it was posted by a Honda sales person who made this flower with post it notes as a decoration in conjunction of Chinese New Year. So yea, I liked so much that I re-created it by learning the steps of making it. It's the same blue flower that was in the very blog..YES, it is the same one. I have made this flower for the Uniten's KOR graduation night as well and this time, I am doing it for the fun of it. :)

Missing it

After taking my lunch today, I kinda think of what songs that I used to like before and there I go..looking for this video and guess what..yup, I have listened to it again and again. It has never failed to catch my attention. I have heard it for a gazillion times already and almost got bored of it once. Almost but not yet though..haha! :P

I know things are a bit off lately but I think those times were the moments that I would really want to remember despite of how life has turned out to be or how bad it can ever get. When I listen to it again, my heart just melts and yes, I want to re-live those sweet times again. Plus, seeing my other friends going off for a better education in the states, I have just realized that maybe it is just time for me to try to mend things up even if my ego have tried to hold me back from doing so. Maybe it won't change anything at all but I don't mind if I have to take the first step for building those memories again. Worth for the try, I guess. Anyhow, I am gonna express myself and admit that I miss it so much regardless of anything. I don't care if I have made it obvious or what so ever anymore. I just like good moments and I want to build more of them. However, if it's time for good bye..then I guess there is no point hanging on anymore. I will just have to let go...

Alright, time to get myself back together. :)

the reason why i smile

Just watched titanic for the second according to my sister. I don't remember what had happened, honestly. I must be too young that time. Anyway, it was one of those movies which I teared out for. I think it was a moving story with emotional build ups and of course, romance. Eventually, I have ended my day while listening to avril's smile..hahaha! and the lyrics just seemed so much better and yes, it was indeed the right way to end my Sunday. :)

Fresh start all over

On the 1st of August, something terrible had taken place and yes, it did involved me in a way. At around 3am in Ann Arbor or 3pm in Malaysia, my friends' house and also, previously owned by my seniors was caught on fire and the ironic thing is that it happened even before they were in the States. It involves me because I was their friend and also, my things were placed in their house temporarily while I went back for my summer break. Now, nothing can be salvaged and no good news about it were told. Hopes were just all we can wish for and there is practically nothing much for us to do but trying to fix it. I was shocked but truth to be told, I wasn't worried at all until these few days. Thinking that I have to go through all the packing and re-buying those things that I have. Trying to get help and call the insurance company to get a 10% coverage but I was told that it was cancelled. Adding to the initial shock, I was also feeling stupid that I didn't take notice of the cancellation of insurance until I called and then, I tried to search for all the documents that I have in my bag and found out that yes, indeed it was cancelled. Even if I had to learn it in the hard way which is to experience it myself, I was thinking that when would be the best time for it to occur if it's not for now. Not that I wished for it to occur but I was glad that it did not happened when I was there and only the clothes, household things, shoes and winter jackets were placed there. Lucky enough, I brought all my documents and electronic devices(well, except for the rice cooker). In a way, I kind of take it as a huge lesson and be more cautious. Rather than grieving over for the loss, I take it as an opportunity for a fresh start. To get stuffs that I only need and not all the other nonsense that I have used to own. It is frustrating to start the new semester in this way, honestly. All I can hope is that this is the worst that I will ever experienced again even though anything else much more worse would take place in the future. Who knows? Life is so unpredictable..