An early new year post

Since I'm rather free and awake at the moment, I will do the new year post. Ling, have fun in Disneyland and Miami ya! Waiting to hear stories from you! ;)

So, what's interesting here in 2011 before we talk about 2012? There are many interesting things:

Becoming a sophomore (only the fact that I can see myself more matured and believe me, it does scare me sometimes. Lol).

Catching up with good old friends and spending time with new ones. Yup definitely nice. The times at Modiva although I am not into alcoholic drinks, I just like to meet up with the long-time-no-see people. Little did I know that many of my school friends could drink already. I mean they have tried many times. Haha! And the times I spent with the debaters for Secret Santa and also at Beatrice's house. It makes me feel so attached to Christmas somehow. And at this very moment, the UKM teams are now in Philippines fighting all out in World's! *keeping my fingers crossed for them* Talking about UKM, I had a great time with my gang. All the times we spent for birthdays and also outings after end of module exam were splendid! And to people who are dear to me, thank you for making my day all the time and for all the little things you have done. I appreciate it a lot. :)

Here comes 2012,

Many people say it's the end of the very world we live in. Somehow, I don't feel like it is. One because I have things to cherish here. Second, I was too caught up with my own things and forgot about the worldly matters. LOL. But still, what would be the last thing you ever wish for? Or what would you do to make no regrets in living?

Not that I have thought much about it but yea something to think through and I think it helps in making new year's resolutions. I'm still thinking about it. Have you? I do know one person with a very nice list of resolutions already. It kinda drives me to think about my own. :)

And here goes nothing..

After a few minutes trying to accept what just happened, I think I will take it as it is. Now, I have only myself to blame for this. I hate my kidneys now. Lol. And the worst thing that could happen just happened to me. No more holidays for me. Gonna work harder. :)

Almost so free

It has been some time since I last posted something here. Yea, caught up with stuffs and everything else. Now that, I'm free..almost so free. *note the "almost". Lol. I should catch up with Sweet, Sour and Bitter. :)

But I guess, I will let the pictures do the talking. XD

Swimming at Eliza's place. Hehe..
IHL debate. We only rocked it on the last day. XD

Adeline's birthday! *the UKM Adeline. :D

MMU Ramadhan debate. We all knew what happened. lol.

Isaac's Delicious Birthday Treat! :D

PBL 14. Us on the last day of CSL session in HUKM. :)

Ying Xin's birthday. Our presence is definitely something unexpected. :D

Now, who's that? Nobody believed I did it. :P

Skating~ Wee~ haha! They even have cameraman walking around to take pictures now.

We were the last ones to come out that day but still, we can't miss this shot. XD

See I wouldn't have realised that I look quite masculine. Haha!

There were other events and happenings too but they're just not here in pictures. There was UKM IV, VC Cup and so many other things going on. All kept safe inside here-my head. Lol. Even though some may fade through time but people say we tend to forget bad memories and those sweet ones stay as long as the person lives. I wanna believe in that at least. :)

With all these, I'm practically ending my 3rd Semester already and moving on to 4th Semester.

Not to mention the torturous exam week that came right before my break. Still couldn't believe that I went through it and yea just hoping for the best now. *praying and keeping my fingers crossed* The worst thing that could ever happen would be no holidays for me the next semester. T.T... Gosh..gonna just take it as it is.

Still, I just wanna enjoy this moment where I have no worries and stress. Am enjoying every minute of it. :D

Hell-o-ween..

After one hellish week of exams, one project, one quiz, one presentation and assignments, I sort of 'wasted' my weekends..lol!
Yes, I barely touch my notes or books. Had a pretty nice halloween for my second year here. Dressed up as an egg..(of course, in a custome). Walking out in the cold, looking fat and getting comments from people as expected. My legs were tired after the long day..haha! The next morning, I went for my very first football game. The weather was cold..:/
Nevertheless, it was pretty cool to be in the stadium being one of the audience cheering for UofM. It was a game against Purdue and we won! That's all for now, I guess. :)

Post its in action!

I saw this cute little mario when I was about to walk down the stairs in the Undergraduate Science Building in UofM and this reminded me of the movie that I have watched on the plane back to the states!! All thanks to post its!! This is like a coincidence..pretty much made my day..haha!

Mario made out of post its:


There is a part in which the guy had made a smiley out of post its!!

Indecisive

Ever felt like doing something even though it's not something you usually do? Your conscious mind tells you not to but it's just something in you that tells you to go for it. How about being torn in between two things? You think you know what you want but you don't actually. After deciding on one thing, you will start to ponder again whether you've made the right choice for yourself. And you ended up without a decision. Sometimes, you wish there was someone who could just decide for you or just give honest opinion for you to think about it. Does it mean that you are an irresponsible person for not being able to decide for yourself and hope to push that responsibility to decide to someone else? :/

Agree?

"The best way to achieve nothing is to try and do everything."

Do you agree with this statement?

For me though, it's not all that true. Some may argue that we should be focus and passionate in the things we do instead of trying to concentrate on everything at once. However, what if we do not know what we want? Don't we have to try everything to know what we like? Some lucky ones got to know their likings earlier than others even though they have not tried everything else that the world has to offer. Then, what would happened to the rest who are yet to know what they like and passionate about? I am a person who certainly contradicts with the statement..Not that I am discouraging others from being focused but the statement could have possibly meant "stop trying and focus." One question I had in mind is "How are we to focus when everything seems to be the same?" Don't we have to try to know what suits us and more importantly, what we like. Haha..I guess this really depends on individual then.

Misplaced in mind and speech

Let's say you are meeting your friends and that you know their names individually very well. While interacting with them, you have accidentally called A as B. In your mind, you know very clearly that you meant A but you tend to say B instead. Sounds familiar to you? Ever experienced this at least once? Well, what if this goes wrong in terms of places instead of names? Your mind has misplaced some place with your intended destination, in short. I have been through that like a millionth times but this time, it had made me to write this post..Yes, I have recently encountered some misplacement of locations in my mind with the right destination. Part of stupidity? Maybe. haha.

Avril craze

I was addicted to another song of hers, "Why" for the past few days and now this. haha!

I'm No Superman

Out the door just in time
Head down the 405
Gotta meet the new boss by 8 a.m.
The phone rings in the car
The wife is workin' hard
She's running late tonight again

Well
I know what I've been told,
You got to work to feed the soul
But I can't do this all on my own
No, I know, I'm no Superman
I'm no Superman

You've got your love online
You think you're doing fine
But you're just plugged into the wall

And that deck of tarot cards
Won't get you very far
There ain't no hand to break your fall

Well
I know what I've been told
You gotta know just when to fold
But I can't do this all on my own
No, I know, I'm no Superman
I'm no Superman

That's right

You've crossed the finish line
Won the race but lost your mind
Was it worth it after all

I need you here with me
Cause love is all we need
Just take a hold of the hand that breaks the fall

Well I know what I've been told
Gotta break free to break the mold
But I can't do this all on my own
No I can't do this all on my own
I know that I'm no Superman
I'm no Superman
I'm no Superman

Someday we'll be together
I'm no Superman
Someday
Someday we'll be together
Someday
I'm no Superman

(I'm no superman, by Lazlo Bane) :)

Leaving soon again!

Yes, I am going back to Ann Arbor in a few hours time..less than 24 hours. I am not so excited to get back though. One reason is that I love to be at home and the other is that I have a lot to do when I am back. Plus, I am pretty lucky for not getting into hurricane irene while travelling. To be truthful, I am worried as I have a transit in JFK..but I think it should be fine now. To think of it, I think I am lucky enough to have avoided it because I could have been in one of those earlier flights.

Well, moving in is a hassle for me but that's ok because I only brought one big luggage and two hand carries..as for salvaging the things in my friend's apartment, I think I would be doomed without a car if there are a lot of things to save from..so here comes my contradicting thoughts..At one side of my mind, I was thinking like I don't have to waste money buying things again if they are not damaged but another part of me was hoping that not much things are saved because I will be having trouble moving those things around. In fact, I can actually take the bus but it would be several trips and the sad thing is that I can't drive even though I have the zip car card..how sad is that..now, regrets came flowing in myself for not improving my driving skills and getting a license in the States..:/

Ok, I am not going to drain myself with the bad vibes. So, lets hope for the best! I will get through these even if they are hard. Yay, positivity now! :D

When things didn't seem to be normal

It's easy to complain about things when you're unhappy about it. Well, at least that's what I do when I'm unhappy about things. Lol. I always thought that was how being honest to others should be. I kinda think that it helps me to be honest with myself as well.

Not everyone shares their problems with everyone. That's a well-known fact but what about not sharing your problems with anyone at all but yourself? I think that's rather harmful not only to yourself but also to the rest around you. Worst thing that could happen is that you will end up being in the mess all by yourself. Hatred comes in when nobody ask you about it and you hope for someone to be there to just listen to you. When hatred takes over you, you start blaming others for being inconsiderate.

I believe we can't be very attentive or concern about every little thing that's happening in others' lives. That's why we have family, friends and a whole lot of others who are around us. Always remember that you are a part of everyone's lives as well.

So, if you do have problems, then say it out loud to someone. Don't just keep it to yourself. The others on the hand gotta be willing enough to listen coz someday you might be the one needing someone to listen to you. Be considerate and start appreciating everyone around you.

Just a random thought. :)

Colors again

I am addicted in making this flower again. I knew how to make it since I was in my secondary years. I even remembered that I found this in the internet while searching for "sakura flower". With the intention of developing a Japanese themed for my sports house, I really think that this flower would make a good match for it. I still recalled that it was posted by a Honda sales person who made this flower with post it notes as a decoration in conjunction of Chinese New Year. So yea, I liked so much that I re-created it by learning the steps of making it. It's the same blue flower that was in the very blog..YES, it is the same one. I have made this flower for the Uniten's KOR graduation night as well and this time, I am doing it for the fun of it. :)

Missing it

After taking my lunch today, I kinda think of what songs that I used to like before and there I go..looking for this video and guess what..yup, I have listened to it again and again. It has never failed to catch my attention. I have heard it for a gazillion times already and almost got bored of it once. Almost but not yet though..haha! :P

I know things are a bit off lately but I think those times were the moments that I would really want to remember despite of how life has turned out to be or how bad it can ever get. When I listen to it again, my heart just melts and yes, I want to re-live those sweet times again. Plus, seeing my other friends going off for a better education in the states, I have just realized that maybe it is just time for me to try to mend things up even if my ego have tried to hold me back from doing so. Maybe it won't change anything at all but I don't mind if I have to take the first step for building those memories again. Worth for the try, I guess. Anyhow, I am gonna express myself and admit that I miss it so much regardless of anything. I don't care if I have made it obvious or what so ever anymore. I just like good moments and I want to build more of them. However, if it's time for good bye..then I guess there is no point hanging on anymore. I will just have to let go...

Alright, time to get myself back together. :)

the reason why i smile

Just watched titanic for the second according to my sister. I don't remember what had happened, honestly. I must be too young that time. Anyway, it was one of those movies which I teared out for. I think it was a moving story with emotional build ups and of course, romance. Eventually, I have ended my day while listening to avril's smile..hahaha! and the lyrics just seemed so much better and yes, it was indeed the right way to end my Sunday. :)

Fresh start all over

On the 1st of August, something terrible had taken place and yes, it did involved me in a way. At around 3am in Ann Arbor or 3pm in Malaysia, my friends' house and also, previously owned by my seniors was caught on fire and the ironic thing is that it happened even before they were in the States. It involves me because I was their friend and also, my things were placed in their house temporarily while I went back for my summer break. Now, nothing can be salvaged and no good news about it were told. Hopes were just all we can wish for and there is practically nothing much for us to do but trying to fix it. I was shocked but truth to be told, I wasn't worried at all until these few days. Thinking that I have to go through all the packing and re-buying those things that I have. Trying to get help and call the insurance company to get a 10% coverage but I was told that it was cancelled. Adding to the initial shock, I was also feeling stupid that I didn't take notice of the cancellation of insurance until I called and then, I tried to search for all the documents that I have in my bag and found out that yes, indeed it was cancelled. Even if I had to learn it in the hard way which is to experience it myself, I was thinking that when would be the best time for it to occur if it's not for now. Not that I wished for it to occur but I was glad that it did not happened when I was there and only the clothes, household things, shoes and winter jackets were placed there. Lucky enough, I brought all my documents and electronic devices(well, except for the rice cooker). In a way, I kind of take it as a huge lesson and be more cautious. Rather than grieving over for the loss, I take it as an opportunity for a fresh start. To get stuffs that I only need and not all the other nonsense that I have used to own. It is frustrating to start the new semester in this way, honestly. All I can hope is that this is the worst that I will ever experienced again even though anything else much more worse would take place in the future. Who knows? Life is so unpredictable..

My bad?

I felt like I was creating enemies for the second time and it wasn't very long ago. The first time was in high school and it was due to a childish act of mine and it ended up in a teary situation. Girls, gossips, backstabbers, friendships and heartaches..It was sort of a drama. I was the cause, of course. Until now, my relationship with this particular friend is just in the 'ok' terms. We don't have much things to say to one another after that incident but she was close to my sister at least. My sister was on her side in that incident. One thing that my sister said that had stuck on my head ever since was "I rather be the one who was used by others than being the one who was guilty for hurting others." I did not agree with her immediately but every time when I did face these kind of circumstances, I would consider this piece of advice. Influential huh? I have to admit that she was.

Not that I completely agree with her but as time passed, I did feel a whole better when I have followed it. There wasn't much of a grudge held and as much as I might feel like I was being used at times, I have to agree that not all things can be counted in life. Well, I might have been maybe a little too cautious when I felt like I am nearing the limitation point. When I have reached my breaking point, I would end up being the one without sense and that being said, I would be the irrational, emotional, stubborn and worst of all, the idiotic one. A lot of people who are close to me might have noticed this part of me and most of them who have not would be kind of surprise to see it. I know that this part of me is the part where no one likes to see but it only occurs when I get really frustrated..when I have gained my conscious, then I would judge myself for what has happened and if I did anything offensive or stupid. Most of the time, I blame myself for it because I have lost control in myself.

The second time was like a month or two ago. The second time was a real hit to my face because it was like "two in one" for me. "Two in one" meaning that two friends at the same time. I did felt like I am creating enemies for the second time and it was as guilty as the one that I had for the very first time. I don't want to blame it on anyone but I guess they just happened to occur due to the wrong timing. One after another is just enough to make me feel so bad. Clearing things up might be a solution, for me at least but I guess it's not the only way to do it and maybe it only works for me. :(

Anyhow, I am moving on and going on with the flow. No reason to think of it and destroy myself with being pessimistic. I am holding no grudge here, just to be sure. haha! I am thinking ahead now and not going to dwell in the past. ;)

Random thought : The picture above reminded me of this peribahasa, "Hilang kabus, teduh hujan" which means "Telah mendapat kesenangan sesudah menderita kesusahan."

Not so little anymore

While I was enjoying my break from studies, my sister is busy studying and preparing for her debate competition. I did not have a lot of opportunity to see her. All I could do at home to help her were helping her to wrap her books and just tolerate with her when she gets frustrated. I get that she is busy, REALLY BUSY to the point where she skipped her meals in between. So, I have decided to watch her(although I do not want to disturb her and make her feel awkward with my presence, I think I did). Ching, I am so sorry but I really wanted to see how far have you improved..Not that I am judging you..It's just that I have not really seen the "debate-side" of you ever since you have told me so many stories about it when you have first debated. Thanks to friend who have accompanied me there, I got to where I was supposed to be without feeling lonely there. YES, I saw my little sister debating..:P

The debate style was BP(British Parliamentary which has 4 teams consisting of two teams in the government and two teams in the opposition which have one opening and closing team respectively) and the motion was "The first world country's affirmative actions have brought injustice to women." The title might be not be worded as it was exactly but this is close enough to it. My sister's team was the closing for the opposition. For me, it has started off with a bad start from the government team but it got cleared up when the opposition started to pointed it out. In the end, it was a worth to watch match because the closing for the both teams were pretty much even. As expected, the oppositions won and my sister's team was second after the opening team for the opposition.

As I have expected, she did impressed me. With the information that she has presented, I was like "Wow, you know a lot!". She was shaky in the beginning but she went on well with justifying her points on her stand. She was not as loud as I have used to be because I am pretty sure that my voice is far louder in high school. She was almost at her loudest, I think. I know that my sister would freaked out if I have started taking pictures and hence, I did not take any pictures but I did recorded her speech.

I wished that she could go to the finals. Good Luck! :)

Eventually, it goes down to one thing.

I have not intended to write anything to harm or discriminate anyone. This topic might be sensitive to many. Generally, it is a topic that most of us have avoided to discuss openly about and a lot of people have chose to be quiet or be ignorant about it. For some people, it might not be an issue at all. For others, it has been an accepted fact. Well, there are some who are fighting to make a difference and a better future. Ok, I am not talking about BERSIH, our government or anything to do with the leaders of our country. I think as you kept on reading, you might know what I am talking about.

Since my schooling years in a public school, I have been to where most students are of a different race from mine. Most of the students and the teachers as well would mingling with those of their own color. Well, it does include me in a way as I chose to mixed with those who can converse in English better. So, most of my friends are either Chinese or Indians as most of the Malays in my school converse in Malay. I know I might be a little bias as I am talking from only my perspective but at the same time, I do wonder..how come my close friends are mostly of my own race and those who can converse better in English? Why can't I mingling with those who converse in Malay? Is it because of my preference to speak in English? Or is it because that I do not have much things in common with them?

And you know, surprisingly, this situation does not only occur in my school but also, after my schooling years in high school. I do not blame anyone for this to occur but it does affect me to a certain extent even if I choose to be oblivious towards it. One of my friend said that it was because of the circumstances such as the language, food and way of living. I do get it as it is much easier to live with those who have more common issues to talk about and most importantly, to do things without having to explain it again and again. There is a mutual understanding, if you get what I mean.

It is not like I have more friends of the same color as my own and that I do not try to mix around with those of a different color but I think I choose to talk to those who prefer to speak in a language that I am comfortable with. It is not Mandarin, Cantonese or Hokkien but it is English (the language that I would prefer to speak, write and listen to). It is not that I do not like Chinese language but it is more conventional for me to speak in English. And it is not because that I am good in it. Honestly, my English standards are only in the satisfactory level. Well, language has certainly been a factor to me in making friends and thus, I have assumed that language plays a role in determining who we choose to be close with. Probably, it only affects to a certain degree..To be completely honest, I have seen that eventually, people tend to mix with their own kind and I don't exclude myself as well. Another thing that upsets me is that people tend to speak in their own native languages when they are with the other races who do not understand them..not that I disagree with them speaking it but the worst is when they do not care to explain when it happens.

I have taken a writing class for the winter semester. Surprisingly, most of the essay topics that were given to me can be related to racial differences. I did try to think of other topics to write on but only this topic was all that I could talk most about and yes, I have eventually wrote about it. I know its a good opportunity to write freely but as much as I want to..I can't bring myself to do it. I find it unfair as it is only coming from me. Thus, I have ended up writing about it in general terms. There are still so many questions that I have in mind about this issue itself. Is it because of me who is still naive and still wants to be unhappy about it or is it that everyone has understood it silently and not want to create any intense situation out of it?

I do want to believe that some of us can bring a difference, however, a part of me was telling me that it is not going to be easy. I know I might not be the best person to talk about this issue since I do not know what others might think of it and this post is just solely based on my own opinion and experience. Still, I think the truth is we all know that this is happening..perhaps some of you might have faced it much more frequent than I do.

Psychologically, people in general will feel more comfortable with people of the same race and background. In Malaysia, the Chinese people whom I know of have their own perspectives about the other races and I can pretty much assume that not only the Chinese have these stereotype mentalities and racial jokes but the other races have them as well, be it Malay, Indian or many others.

As much as I hope or wish that race to be not even considered as a factor in anything and in anywhere at all, I know I am just relying on the hopes that it might be true one day. It is hard to explain to the older generations, people around me and even some of my friends. I don't expect them to understand that I am frustrated about it. I chose to be quiet because I know it is sensitive. Not that I have nothing to say but it takes everyone to get it to make it happen.

I am not all that perfect myself to even talk about this issue but I want to remind myself at least, in my own blog that "You know..you have mentioned about this before." I don't want to regret in the later part of my life that I have not even raised an opinion about it. I am writing this because I am a Malaysian and I still care about my country.

I found it!

Ever since I came back home, I felt like everything and everyone else is smaller. Not only my dad was thinner but so is my sis and mum as well. I feel like the fat one at home. Thanks to the winter in Michigan and of course, due to my own laziness, I am officially the "fat-one"! I am going back to my original weight and lose that 5 kgs away! I have found one method of doing it and its hula-hooping! The video below is my inspiration and motivation! fyi, I do have some basics in hula-hooping..:P

Worth it!

If you still think that our country is worth to be treasured and to be loved,
If you still want to be a part of this unique country,
If you want to fight for the betterment of our country,
If you are a Malaysian, please look at this and contribute! :D


http://watufighting4lah.tumblr.com/

Back for the summer

Yes, I am back now. :)

After the long hours of flight and stops, I am back in KL! My parents were there waiting and waving at me. I was so glad to see them and I have noticed that they are smaller( I think its because that I am bigger in size)..:(

During my journey, I have met a Malaysian who has the exact same flight as mine. And yes, I mean all the way from Michigan to Washington to Doha and finally, to Malaysia. I felt a bit better knowing that someone would be with me all the way back home.

I was lucky enough to be in the business class flight. Thank you, Qatar! :P
It was so comfy and nice. At least, I don't have to squeeze myself and I was able to stretch all time.

Again..I don't really like to have too much time for myself..the time for me to think about just anything. Sounds a bit idiotic, I know..but I can't help to think about the actions that I have regretted for, the stupid decisions that I have made and the moments where I have not been the rational me because I chose to be the emotional me. As much as I want to put the blame on my girl issue or on any other reasons at all, I felt like I was the one at fault in the end.

There are just so many things can be done in just a few months. Bad or good..anything at all. However, I can only think of those that I dislike and hated. I know I should be grateful and think of the happy and joyful moments in life. Guess I had my self reflective time?

I know that I am not all that right in all matters. I don't even think that there is one right way in everything at all. There are only different ways and different opinions. I am not being specific about a certain issue..I like my posts to be as general as possible. I am just frustrated that I am not able to think rationally and be emotionally stable when I was placed in an awkward position or in a situation where I have to make the decision.

I can't see any changes in me. I know some people were thinking that I might be more "westernized" and all but..there are things that I don't want to change still. I am not any better than anyone else. I am still regular and of course, a little bigger in size but I am still the same person. Nothing much had changed. Being abroad for just a few months did not make me at advantage or at a better position than someone who did not leave the country.

Eventually, it's all about us being able to shape ourselves to improve for the better. For me, life is not about being better than someone else. After all, what is it that we are living for? Ourselves right?

MC all the way

This is like a fairy tale:

Just watch the first video and then, the next...you will know why. Most probably some of you might have knew this. I knew it long time ago but since I am addicted to her songs now..hahaha, I might as well post this to share with those who don't know about this continuation "fairy tale" music video. :)

1.Mariah Carey - It's like that


2. Mariah Carey - We belong together

Drums

It was just like any other day when our parents were driving us back home from school. About 6 years ago, I think it was brother who had emphasized on the drummers once when we were listening to the songs played by hitz.fm in the car. Not that I have not noticed the drums playing but I have realized that I have not tried to only listen and pay attention to the drums playing. All those times when I was in the car, I have only put my focus listening to the vocalist singing while trying to grasp the lyrics, the guitar doing its thing or the piano playing as the start off for a song. I know my brother might not remember that he have once said that but ever since then, I sort of paid attention to all kinds of instruments played in the song and that explains why I listen to one song repeatedly..He said that he would be interested in playing drums if he had the chance to. I was wondering if I were to play any instrument, I wonder which instrument will I play best or have talent in? Piano or guitar? Nah, too ordinary although it's sweet and touchy. hmm...violin? Not really, it's just too elegant..flute or anything similar to it? nope..I think it will hurt. Drums? Hmm..too punky and I will create a chaos out of it. I will just stick to no instrument for the moment..lets just say that I am still searching for the right one.

I think drummers don't get much attention in the band..simply because they are usually placed at the back of the vocalist and guitarist due to the size of the drums and thus, making them as the back drop in music videos..That's my opinion at least. Plus, drums are just too loud..I don't know the exact reason for it but I have wondered why people were more amazed or touched when someone plays the piano or the guitar rather when someone plays the drums with all kind of beats..Maybe different instruments give different feelings or maybe there might be something else that I don't know of. The people who I know of usually play the piano or the guitar and also, parents who I knew send their small little kids to practice them but not many would actually want to send kids to learn drums except for one kid who is my friend's cousin..Drums are the biggest-sized ones and yet, they failed to get the major attention.Anyway, drums give loud beats which I think is cool for some reason. :)

By the way, enjoy the video on top. It's a drum cover for 'Pieces of Me' by Ashlee Simpson. Just try to listen to the drums and only the drums. :P

Master Oogway's Wisdom

Kung Fu Panda's story line might be predictable but it surely had impressed me. Thank you, Master Oogway. You might have heard of his advice before but he had surely convinced me. Well, at least, it is worth to be heard again and again to get some motivation. And now, I want to share it here. :)

Sophomore?

Yes, I will be officially a second-year university student soon! So soon that I'm starting to think whether I've really got what it takes to be one. I'll leave that for time to tell me. I don't know for sure if I'm ready for this new term. :S

Maybe I'm just reluctant to accept the fact that my holidays are gonna be over. I don't like the busy routine of a university student. Some people say that I don't get the taste of that sort of life because I live nearby. Yea probably, but it's not like I think life is really easy now. In other words, it's just not like the kind of life in school where things aren't so difficult.

I came across the article on student suicides in South Korea in the Star newspaper. The reason for this is the "obsession for academic success." I took the exact phrase they used in that article. Nowadays, students take their grades so seriously just because they hope to have a successful career later in life.

The question is whether there should be a change in the current education system. Probably it's time for students to realise that there are other stuffs in their lives besides assignments, exams and classes.

Afterall, what's life if there's no fun to it? But then again, can we enjoy our lives without a promising future ahead of us? Perhaps we should just take things moderately. :)

Childhood flashbacks

Woke up at 3am. Went to the toilet. Opened my laptop and thanks to Google, I have found out that it was Richard Scarry's birthday. Nothing was amazing about it until I clicked on the link and saw the pictures. Then, I saw the worm in the apple helicopter!! All I could said was "Hey, I have seen this before!"

I did not know Richard Scarry until now. All I remembered was that I have watched 'Busy Town' in tapes and played the games in the computer when I was younger. I can't remember what was going on in the story and really, I had no idea at all..but I remembered clicking on the trucks, the helicopter, the animals...etc. It was such a waste that I did not know the creator of this amazing author who have created all this. The surprising thing was that 'Busy Town' was apart of my childhood..Even though I can't recall most of them, I know that it had attracted me when I was little. I liked it at some point of my life.

If I had not been awake..I would not have found the creator of 'Busy Town'..It would have been such a waste to not know who had created something that was once so interesting and educating in my life. This is just so amazing!!:)

Some things just happen for a reason, I guess. hahaha!

Go Blue!

I was doing my webwork earlier and as expected, I did not manage to finish all of them..this time is the worst of all, I have two questions unanswered. I guess I have to start earlier next time. I was just too tired to start during the weekend due to the muscle aches from the Mid West Games in Madison, Wisconsin.



Tha Capitol in Madison!

Well, I was very satisfied with our very own women soccer team and even more proud to be a part of this amazing team! We did not win any medal but we managed to play in the semi-finals. I am not very good in sports..especially when it comes to moving my legs..I am pretty sure that I am more of a hand person. Because of that, I have almost jeopardized my team with two penalties. I felt the fear of disappointing my whole team and I prayed so hard that Izyan (our goal keeper and our captain as well) would be able to catch the ball. Thank God, she managed to clean up my mess!



The Wolverines! :)

The first two matches made me so scared..they had very strong attackers and strikers. Since, I was playing defense, I could feel the pressure. There was so many times in which I have secretly wished that I was out of the field cheering along with the spectators but I know I can't be selfish. I have to give all I have just like the rest did. However, the last match against Purdue really got me fired up. They weren't as aggressive as the other two teams(Minnesota and Vanderbilt)..they are just like us. We managed to get a tie (thanks to Nuha who volunteered to play as the attacker and help us to score the goals). A little twist in the game plan did some good for our team. Unfortunately in the end, they have managed to score a goal in the extra play off time given. So, yea..we lost. Although some of us were injured like Zera and Syiqin and most of us were totally exhausted, I don't feel that we are at loss. Being that it was our first time competing in the Mid West for soccer, I was proud that we got into the semi-finals! We really had fun and we enjoyed the last match. It was a good one indeed! We even had time for taking a few nice shots with our t-shirts. Thanks to Anita for the awesome pictures.



Hopefully, we will be competing next year and when that time comes, it's our turn to shine! Go Blue!;)

By the way, we managed to paint our nails too. Just for the spirit..not to look good or anything. I would have taken them off way earlier if it was not for Michigan!



Credits to Ikha. :P

Great Serdang Debate 2011

Even during the semester break, UKM teams still participated in this tournament. GSD was held in UPM and I finally took pictures this time. Hehe. This wasn't really our tournament. We had ups and downs.

Personally, I didn't think we could bring back the trophy but it's not like I didn't have hopes for it. Just not so much, I guess. For one, we aren't experienced enough as we are all juniors except for the UKM adjudicators. Secondly, we weren't so prepared to go for this tournament. We had trainings but it is just never a statement for me that I would be much prepared for any competition. LOL. It was just to see how much I've improved if I did. I think I did learn a few things.

I am pretty sure all the UKM debaters are disappointed with our bad achievements but we'll strive better right? :) Apart from all of that, I felt we really got close and knew one another better as we could hardly meet up unless if we come for trainings. We had our very own activity to increase the bonding among ourselves. It was more about the same thing we did in Royals. Played games, went out and bought presents for ourselves.

As for now, we are all busy preparing for our very own intervarsity tournament, UKM IV. We're supposed to promote it so if you're interested, just go to ukmintervarsity.wordpress.com

That's all for now. :)

dance dance dance!

Dance dance dance! I just can't take my eyes out of them. ;)

Thinking too much?

That's me checking my phone and not realising that someone was taking this picture. Taken by my dear friend, Min Hui who is also my labmate and she can be as blur as me in the lab. LOL. I think it was during VC Cup..long time ago. Just find it interesting as I was looking through old pictures. XD

I was still with my straight hair. Haha..anyway, I remember feeling down that time because I think I wasn't not good enough. I think I'm still not good enough now. Well, it isn't about winning after all. I just don't feel that I am ready enough. I probably never feel good about myself until today. :(

I tried thinking of what I really want and yet I don't think I could tell what it is. I feel it's so aimless. Maybe I'm just thinking too much because of the holidays. But it felt good to meet my KMK sisters and my old school friends. It's not like I don't like holidays. I gotta admit I enjoy sleeping anytime I want, going out with my mum, watching all my favourite TV series and all.

Sometimes I feel like I hope for something that seem very much impossible for me to get or achieve. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to be the one..the one who gets the privilege or benefit. Sometimes I feel like it is only me who thinks that this is right. So, am I the problem? Guess it's just me thinking too much.

Well, I hope I figure this out soon. I am also hoping that this holidays will pass really slow because I'm not ready to go back to my busy life in UKM. :)

Just maybe?

I was doing my web homework earlier today. The worst was that I have ended up spending almost all day long doing it. Finally, I got done with it one and a half hours ago before I start typing this blog post. I know this is redundant but anyway, I have no idea on how to start off this post. There is so much of things in mind that I want to say but I know not all of them are necessary or that important. Most of them are crappy and not worth it to be heard.

I was wondering what might have been different if somethings were not here for me and what would have been today without those things around me. Maybe there is a lot more to it than I have imagined, thought and had today..but but..just maybe..just maybe...things might have been worse as compared to now. So, I guess.. there is some truth behind living in the present.

Not that I hope things to change now but I am accepting the way things that are working around me. It is not all about me all the time..There are many others facing a harder time. Unfortunately, most of us only think about ourselves and only want to be heard and not the other way around. Guess it is just human nature? Well..humans will be humans. Ok, I will get back to my studies.

Never Gonna Leave This Bed

Maroon 5! Despite the fact that the music video for this song is a little not suitable for those who are under 18, I think it is a really nice song. Honestly, I don't think this mv is disgusting, it is kinda sweet actually. At least the girl in the video with Adam Levine is not just any random girl. Just him and his girlfriend. Aww.. I think that's cute enough. Okay, even the title might get people thinking dirty. Lol. Enjoy! :)

Life as it is?

I have never thought that I would get some of the things in my life that soon. A few of them still seem a little unreal to me. When I have chose to just keep myself quiet and not do anything extraordinary, life just keep giving me something to think of, something to hold on to, something to cherish and unfortunately, life also took away so many things that I have once liked so much that I have never thought that being away from them would make my life better. Life is just so interesting that it has given me the chance to meet many people as I go. Different people believe in different things. I think that this might have explained the different types of religion, principles in one-self and purposes in life. Am I someone who is religious? I am not ashamed to admit that I am not. I do not know a lot about Buddhism nor Taoism, that I will agree. I was not told, taught and never did I ever try to find out out about them. Maybe for me, living up to principles that I have in life is just enough to make me human. So, do I believe in God? Yes, I do. I pray every night before I sleep but I did not pray in any other ways that I think I was suppose to pray in. I do not read mantras or any form of prayer. All I do is just talk to Him in English. Yes, I do not speak in Hokkien or Cantonese when I pray. Maybe I did use a little mixture of Chinese and Malay for some words that I find more comfortable to use. Am I bad for not practicing my own religion or at least try to learn about it? What if I feel that I have the right to choose on what I should believe in? Or is life just like that for me? I just don't know the answer. As long as I feel good about my actions, I think I am good. Don't get me wrong. I still believe in God and I do not plan to change my religion. I have never thought of changing it, really. Just that I have some thoughts in mind that I felt like sharing them. :)

Friday

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Today is Friday! No, it's not about Rebecca Black or the date 13th Friday. Today, I am happy. It feels so nice after telling the truth and expressing my inner self. The fear that I had in me was almost completely gone. Thanks to raisins! :D
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stupid but worth

I am about to do something that is so stupid for something that I think its worth taking the risk. I kept on thinking about it but it's not going to work if I don't take any move. I have to do this..one day..no matter how many critics or comments I might get from people. I don't see the point hiding from something that should be happy for me. I don't get why should I feel so guilty for something that I can't control. I don't see the point of hiding anymore. Hiding keeps me thinking about the consequences. It will kill me if this continues. I am just going to do it and see what happens. Even if the whole world might hate me for it or if some people might get hurt from it, I still think that to know sooner is better than later. I am not going to be afraid to take this stupid wise move of mine. I don't see the point of it anymore, really. I am not wrong..this is just life. It is so dramatic and ironic that this had happened to me. It is a risk that I will take and I hope everything will be fine. I really do. Don't hate me, please..

Whatever happens, happens

I have weird moments where my tears will just flow down my cheeks without any good reason. When my mind just starts to think, it goes so deep and wanders so much that I guess I can't control it. Not all that I think of are good stuffs, there are more bad thoughts that come to my mind. Thinking on whether I have made the right decision in some of the things that I have done, I was just too scared to answer them. I have chose to turn to face fear instead of reality. Facing something that I was thinking of and not something that I am going through, I felt a little dumb. I don't know what else to think of. My mind would just tend to think of the possibilities that I didn't want, the chances of being a failure, and the thoughts that might have changed me for who I am today. I don't know if it's for the better or worse. For now, I will just do what I want and think is not bad for myself. Let whatever that happens, happens even if I was in uncertainty.

Peace of mind

Traveling alone and leaving all by myself for a few days? Nah..I would never do that but I did. Just because my mum had the opportunity to go to the states, Las Vegas, I thought that it would be nice to meet her there. It is not easy to get someone like my mum to get here. I would really want to spend time with her when she gets here. That's all I had in mind - to be with her. I don't plan to go to Vegas if it was not for her. Although I would be alone for a few days, I think I should make it as a once in a life time thing to travel all by myself. Of course, I do hope that I can go with some friends of mine but things don't go as plan or not everything has to go as I want them to be as always. Guess it is time to be independent and have some peace of mind alone? I am not going to say that it's awesome being alone but the satisfaction is truly there. I don't feel pressured. There is no drama going on. I laugh at myself for my own stupidity for getting lost. LOL! So many things came to my mind. I have thought of my life like what has been interesting and what not. The time spent alone was not too bad. I got myself some answers. Answers that I could not get if I didn't have much time for my own mind to wander around. Answers that speak for themselves and that I have to agree even if I don't want to. Not to mention that being a female traveling is not a good or wise choice, I would never agree on anyone of my girl friends to travel alone..That's for sure!

That is all from me in Las Vegas! :)

A Thousand Miles

The picture above, it is a picture which is supposed to be in my birthday post. Haha..Yup that's my birthday cake! From left, Cassy, me and Ying Xin.

It has been awhile since I last posted something here. All because of exams! Now that my finals are officially over, I can finally spend time doing this post. I don't know what or how I did for exams. I'm still traumatized. LOL. Well, I've been through it and I will just get over whatever that is on my way. It is over but I wasn't happy like I expected myself to be. Am I still stressed up? Haha.. Hoping for the best for myself and not forgetting for Ling as well. *keeping my fingers crossed.*

There came the end of misery or the end of the final exam. XD.. After exams, there wasn't really any plans for me so I ended up going out with the Apartment Gang since my close friends went back home. Lol. Had lunch, watched movie and had dinner. So, what's next?

I plan to catch up on episodes of whatever shows which I've been missing out and watch anime series. And read the book which I've never touched it even though I had it like since last year. I think Ling knows it. The Time Traveler's Wife..Hehe. Probably go out and meet my old friends. Continue my jogging routine. Hmm..what else? Oh yea, the HC community project, Genting trip and debate. Wondering if other trips will work out.

A Thousand Miles is a title of a song. Song again! Yea I guess I'm really influenced by songs. I heard it on the radio while driving back so got hooked up by it now. Would you walk a thousand miles just to see someone else? For someone you really like? Or maybe for your family? Just being random. I think I actually know someone who did that and would have done it without doubt. :)

While this and that..

While browsing through the homepage in facebook, I saw one of my friend's shared link and I went on watching the video in it. It was about Tyra Banks Show. It got me hooked up for about 1 hour watching the other videos of her talk shows! Believe or not, I think I would be watching it if I do not have exams in these few days time..hahaha! Too bad I will just have to resist it and deal with it until my finals are done!

While browsing through my profile pictures in facebook, I have realized that my pictures from the first time when I got the account until today have changed..The change that I meant was not 'the me growing up' or 'how different I may look now compared to last time'. The difference is subtle and I am not surprised if my friends did not notice it. The pictures that I had before were just me, myself and I. The next person that will be in my pictures would be my sister and that was it. Then until when I was about to leave M'sia, I have started using pictures of me with my close friends. Now, I don't feel like choosing those pictures of my 'pretty' face or 'close-up' pictures as my display picture. One reason is to reduce random friend adds from god knows who and the more important reason is for the sake of my own satisfaction.

While writing this blog post, I feel bad for not studying and guilty for wasting my time here..Ok, I got to go and catch up with my studies now. :(

Painting the truth?

When you think that things are right, have you ever thought that things could be wrong?
When you think that they are right, have you ever thought that they might be wrong?
When you think you are right, did it ever crossed your mind that you were absolutely wrong?

Yes, I am talking about truth. Is it really necessary to know the absolute truth? Will it make any difference if you have already accepted a lie from the beginning and after 10 years later, you know the real truth? Would it matter? The feeling of being betrayed from knowing the real thing would make you sad, that is true, but knowing it or not would not change anything that you are today or what you have done in the past. Do you think that you will be more contented and satisfied with what you might have become if you knew the truth from the start? Would it? Are you sure?

Why is it important to know the truth? Even if the truth was told and you know that you cannot do anything to change it, then why bother telling? Just keep it as it is then. Knowing about it or being ignorant about it would not change a single thing that you are today. You have been created to become "the you today" and that was when you think that the lie was the truth. That was when you still believe on something even if it was not true.

I am telling you because I think it is the truth. :)

Don't be scared to start all over again

Just a few days ago, I had trouble making my essay longer. In order to meet the length of a 6 page essay, I have neglected about the true essence of writing. My thoughts and ideas were not organized at all. At one point, I really thought that I have lost it all. I thought writing was not my thing after all. It is not like writing was something that I was good at but I write to encourage myself to express in another way and also, to improve my writing. Because I was so scared to start all over again, I was stuck on the same paragraph for days.

Surprisingly, when I realized something in between when I was trying to get the string back into the pants(details weren't important). I know that my mum has taught me a technique of using the hair pin before but I can't remember how she did it. The string was stuck in the middle and I was trying to get it to the other end of the opening. Being the chicken me, I have not thought of taking the whole string out and start to put the string back like a needle through one of the opening to the other. I only did that when a friend of mine told me to take the string out. See..sometimes, you just have to start all over to end it fast and not waste time by being at where you are stuck at.

Writing should be taken seriously as a form of expression of thoughts in mind. It should not be a burden but it should be done willingly. If it ever becomes a headache to write, then you have lost it all. However, don't give up! Don't be afraid to start all over again even if you have done 3 pages or so! Start from brain storming again. Just write down your ideas. They don't have to be pretty or neat. Continue with expanding your thoughts and points. Then, start to get hold of yourself and write. Trust yourself and believe that you are right. I am sure you will produce something significant.

Sometimes, it is not about what you have done or how much of time you have spent on doing something. It is not about effort all the time. When you don't feel right about doing something, then do something else. Have faith in yourself and do it! Never be scared to start from scartch. :)

If I were a boy

Harvest Moon! I used to play this playstation game when I was younger. I still remembered how Ling and I played this sharing the same account. We always wanted everything to be perfect. If it didn't turn out the way we wanted it to be, we would not save the game. Lol. My brother and my cousins weren't so fussy like us though. They just play it the way want it coz after all it was just a game. My sis and I however, played it as if it's real and guessed what we even had a book to list down what to do for that game. Crazy huh? Probably addicted! XD

We had to play the male character coz we don't have any other choices that time but now there are so many versions of Harvest Moon. I wonder if people still play this game. Sometimes I think that being a guy is so much easier than being a girl. But hey, we wouldn't know if that's true, would we?

If I were a boy, my parents need not worry about me getting home by myself especially when it's really late at night. I would have been a little taller in height. Haha.. Maybe my actions wouldn't be affected so much by emotions. I would be the good guy coz I would have kept chivalry alive. Hehe.. Probably I might be more assertive in making decisions. I would also have more courage to do something. I would be a loyal partner and a responsible man. And also, the man who places his family as his top priority. I hope to be a good dad and be close to my kids. My wife need not be the prettiest thing on Earth but someone I really love and trust. That's like the ideal guy who most likely wouldn't exist unless if I were a guy. Just kidding. LOL.

No matter what it is, I guess the most important thing is to be yourself and be on the right track. Live your life! *Similar to the last thing I said in my impromptu speech in English class.* :D

I want to fly

It's frustrating when I try to approach things in a different manner but they still ended up in the same way. All I want is more comfort, less awkwardness and more maturity in the way that I respond when challenges hit me right on my face but it turns out to be the same. Sometimes, I think that there might not be any difference in the way that I act or response because in the end, I am pretty sure that I am getting to the same old conclusion. I don't know if I am doing it right as it seems like it's going down to the same road. It is the road that I didn't want to walk on. The road that terrifies me. The road that I was not ready to take. The road that does not bring me back to home. When I took the first turn, it seemed like I was going to the "unwanted" road. So, I reversed back and tried to take another turn but I feel like I am heading towards the same direction. In the start, I thought that the there are two different turnings that lead to different roads but now, I think was wrong all these while. I feel like stopping at my current position and take a flight back home. Well, I don't really mean Malaysia if you know what I mean.

I am begging you please

I gave up in trying to find my watch. I have lost it. I am so sorry, mummy..:(
It's my fault for being clumsy to forget where have I placed it. My bad for being the stupid one. Thinking that it was safe to put it somewhere else besides my own pocket, I have regretted it ever since. I was really dumb to even think that I have a good memory.

It was so sad that everytime, I pulled up my jacket's sleeves and only got to realized that my watch was not there anymore.It was hard to not being able to know the current time. Now, I have to rely on my phone. I miss my watch so much now. It was the prettiest one that I had so far.

These were the last few pictures with you, my awesome shiny pretty little watch:





Please let me find you somewhere in my room..I am begging you please. I promise you that I will take good care of you..:(

It is right rationally and wrong emotionally

I don't think I should be posting this now being that I am supposed to be studying for my midterms on monday and tuesday but..I think I need to. As I was walking down the street..many things..believe me..a lot of things came into my mind. I was walking aimlessly..hoping that the wind will hit or smack on my face even harder everytime when it blows. I want to wake up and be real again. I just have a feeling that I am faking something. As if I was not being me..or maybe it's the other way round..I am losing myself..I don't know what to say or how to describe it but all I want to do is be alone and scream all I want. Crazy? Don't worry I am still sane. I am sure of it..hahaha! I know why I am feeling frustrated but I think it's the right thing to just let it go because in the end, there will be nothing left. That frustration came from my very own feelings and not my mind. I just felt like I needed something but I know I can't have it because it's the wisest option to not have it. I know I am crapping. Yes, I am but I really need this one. I need it. :')

Fearing for the worst

After the end module exam, I thought I wouldn't have much things to do but it didn't turn out that way. Instead everything just came to me all of a sudden and I seriously felt like screaming at one point. Some of my friends knew that I was stressed up. I was glad that they were supportive and caring. Really wanna thank them! A friend asked me what would I usually do to get away from stress? Hmm.. It really got me thinking.

I only got to found out the day after that. I have to do something really crazy! LOL. I mean something really challenging and new. It was a very sudden decision. I have actually decided to drive alone, yup me and myself, to class. FYI, I have never driven a car all by myself til then!

Honestly, I felt so relieved after that! I just don't know why. The taste of freedom! Woohoo~ Probably I just needed some time for myself and do things my way. I had the music blasting in the car and I was singing out loud. Hehe

Now, I got other stuffs to worry about. I don't know if I can overcome my fears. I don't think I'm prepared for it and people expect the best out of me. I don't know if I can meet their expectations. Hope things will work out as it should be *keeping my fingers crossed*

Being worried helps

Yes, I was worried about a lot of things recently. Most of them were academic stuffs like projects, exams and essays. In addition to that, I was also worried about the bhangra dance.

I am not a good dancer. I was told that I was stiff once. I was bad in remembering steps while dancing. I am not professionally trained. I don't go for dance classes. Choreographing a dance? I have never thought of that in my life..hahaha. I was involved because I want to try and have fun with my friends. All these while, I thought that everything that I have learnt in school about dances and performances were right and when I got to know that they weren't all that accurate, I was upset. Yes, I want to get things done quickly. Without thinking much about doing right thing, I was more focus on getting it done.

Although I have spent so much of time in trying to get steps done, they won't be worth if they are not the right steps. I don't want to be the one who spreads the wrong information about my own country to everyone else. That thought alone itself was killing me inside. I don't want to be the one to blame. I want to get it right. I am not a Malaysian if I were to insist on my own steps. Getting the steps right was hard enough for me. Thank you to Professor Anis for being there to correct the dance steps.

If you think it's easy to shop online..think again. Amazon have messed up my orders. I have ordered 4 pairs of bangles. It was 3am when I got back to get the package and opened it. I got them all but one of the pairs only had one in it instead of two. Fearing that the bangles won't reach on time, I made another order and called them in the morning. They said they will mailed it to me by priority mail and promised that it will be there before March 12th(MCN day). Let's hope so.

Because I was worried, I slept pretty late these few days and I can't sleep when the clock hits 12am or 1am. I am wide awake! Thanks to that, I was able to revise for my chemistry exam..hahaha.

I wrote this post to update my blog and nothing else. Ok, I better get my report, essay and not forgetting, revision for the next exam done. Busy busy busy..

Colors made my day

Love the bright colorful skittles! :D



I have just realized that my small coin bag was attractive.:)



Today is just another sunny day! :)

Just an Amatuer

Just went for a debate tournament again. It is the National Novice Debating Championship 2011. A tournament for novices only and amateurs like me and all the first years. Lol. A great experience for me. I really learned a lot of things like I should get rid of my fears and think straight in any situations at all! Everyone did a good job in Novice and hopefully we will get better! :D

At times, I think back of the times when I was at school. The times when I got embarrassed when I was too nervous to speak on stage which I ended up crying for it, just made me smiled thinking of it now. Silly me.. And until now, I haven't really improved in anything but I am working on it. Lol.

That's all form me for now. So, don't be like me here. Just don't let anything get in your way. :)

Beyond my expectations

Work it, make it, do it, Makes us harder, better, faster, stronger!





Those who know me might be thinking that why am I listening to this old song out of a sudden. Plus, it is not the kind of song that I will play it if I can choose. The reason is simple; I just think that it suits me now. It's motivating me, really!

:)

Learning hurts

I have always thought that there is a limit to one's capability to learn something. Let it be a language, subject or skill. When you have reach it, you cannot get any further than that level. That is you and you are never going to pass that line because you will not be you anymore if you have passed it. You have maximized what you are capable of and that is enough for you..accept it.

I am wrong to even have that perception in mind. I should not doubt capability. There is just no limit to it. Why am I even thinking that I wont be able to do something when people around me seemed like they are just doing it right somehow? I can tell that I am just in a situation where I don't want to pay the price of the dress. The dress is so beautiful and I know that I want it because I think it looks good on me but I don't want to pay for it.

Once I have thought that cooking was impossible. Well, at least for me. To cook everyday was like a "No, No" to me but now, it is like a norm for me. I cook for most of my meals everyday! Yes, everyday! What I am trying to imply is that nothing is impossible because it is just our mental state that tells us that "Stop, I am done with it!" Of course, to learn something, you gotta pay the price for it and be patient. Once, you have done a mistake, it can be fixed and be taken as a lesson even if it is going to be painful. I have learnt that I cannot start putting the oil in the pan while there there are still some water in it, onions can help to reduce oil in food, steam cooks faster at times, use the rice cooker to save time, minced garlic is less of a hassle than fresh garlic, etc. Despite all of my lessons, I got some burns on my hands and yet, I am glad to say that "I can cook!"

No, I am not a victim of being abused but I am a victim of my own carelessness and stupidity in cooking.







Sharing some of my faillures in cooking:




Pictures above are just meant for laughs. :)