Speak Now

I am not the kind of girl,
Who should be rudely bargin' in on a white veil
occasion,
But you are not the kind of boy,
Who should be marryin' the wrong girl,

I sneak in and see your friends,
And her snotty little family, all dressed in pastel,
And she is yelling at a bridesmaid,
Somewhere back inside a room,
Wearing a gown shaped like a pastry,
This is surely not what you thought it would be,
I loose myself in a daydream,
Where I stand and say:

"Don't say yes, run away now,
I'll meet you when you're out,
Of the church at the back door,
Don't wait or say a single vow,
You need to hear me out,"
And they said, "Speak now,"

Fun gestures are exchanged,
And the organ starts to play
A song that sounds like a death march,
And I am hiding in the curtains,
It seems I was uninvited by your lovely bride-to-be,
She floats down the isle like a pageant queen,
But I know you wish it was me,
You wish it was me, don't you?

Don't say yes, run away now,
I'll meet you when you're out,
Of the church at the back door,
Don't wait or say a single vow,

You need to hear me out,
And they said, "Speak now,"
Don't say yes, run away now,
I'll meet you when you're out,
Of the church at the back door,
Don't wait or say a single vow,
Your time is running out,
And they said, "Speak now,"

I hear the preacher say,
"Speak now or forever hold your peace,"
There's a silence, there's my last chance,
I stand up with shaking hands,
All eyes on me,
Horrified looks from everyone in the room,
But I'm only lookin' at you,

I am not the kind of girl,
Who should be rudely bargin' in on a white veil
occasion,
But you are not the kind of boy,
Who should be marryin' the wrong girl,

So don't say yes, run away now,
I'll meet you when you're out,
Of the church at the back door,
Don't wait or say a single vow,
You need to hear me out,
And they said, "Speak now,"

And you say,
"Let's run away now,
I'll meet you when I'm out of my tux at the back door,
Baby, I didn't say my vows,
So glad you were around when they said, "Speak now,"

[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/taylor-swift-lyrics/speak-now-lyrics.html]

I kinda like this song because of its lyrics. It is well-written by Taylor Swift. Would anyone barge in someone's wedding like that? I wonder. Lol. That person sure has a lot of guts to do that. Salute people with courage to do that before they think it is too late. Do what you think is right! :D

Out of Place

Just came back from Johor last night and now I feel kinda lost in the real world. The 5 days spent in UTHM are definitely memorable. 2010 ROYALS was awesome! Even though, I complained about a lot of stuffs there, I felt it was worth at the end of the day. My team didn't managed to get into the quarters but I was glad that at least we nearly made it. I am pretty sure all the UKM teams did their best already. Honestly, I feel really proud being a UKM debater. Our seniors were great! At least they made it into quarters and there was one team which made it into finals against UM! Congrats to all of them!

About the debate, I felt like nobody expected UKM to make it so far and most importantly put up a good fight. I salute my seniors for making what people thought was impossible possible. On the other hand, I feel really bad for my team because I felt like I contributed the least. Anyway, anyhow, what has happen is the past so no more emo-ing for me.

After ROYALS, I felt out of place. Guess I am starting to miss those times we had in ROYALS. I never regret going for it even though I know that I have a pile of work left waiting to be done-studying! Gosh.. Can I have a break? Lol.

No pictures from me in this post because I didn't take any. Anyway, it was a nice experience even without pictures from me. Long live UKM Debaters! :D

Peace?

Lying down comfortably on the couch accompanied with a hot Milo on the coffee table while reading a book, peace is the only thing that I have felt. It has been a really long time in which I had basically nothing to do or worry about. It doesn't feel like heaven nor does it feel like hell. It's just a state in which my mind not thinking about serious matters.

Feeling a little bored, I went to my room and took out the pretty little small book that my sister and my friends had made for me as memento of my younger days. It was decorated so nicely and inside were filled were words that have made me cried for several times after reading them. The first time when I looked at it and not even reading it..my tears could not stop flowing down my cheeks. And I could not even bring myself to read it. The time when I actually had a good look at it was during the long hours in plane in my journey to US. When everyone else was sleeping or reading some book quietly, I was weeping away..hahaha.Today, however, I didn't not cry at all. I went through every page and look at every picture in detail. The only thing that came to me was gratefulness of having such friends in high school. Thanks Ching, Yeng, Debbie, Prithi, Kah Wei, Julia and Irina! :)

Not forgetting to mention that the internet was down, there was nothing much that can be done for the whole day. I was lucky enough to have my iPhone with me. Connecting through some random wireless network, I managed to get on skype and facebook at least. As always, my so called "chi mui"(sister in chinese) was online..maybe he will insist on "heng tai"(brother in chinese)..lol. We talked about random things. I wasn't all that bored for a moment. Thanks ya!:P

Now here I am in the lobby of Utowers with my laptop on my lap writng this post of mine while waiting for my sister to come online. It has been 5 days since I had spoke to her and yes, I am missing her already. Having her online will definitely make my day. Ching, I am waiting! :)

Art strikes again!

Weeks back, I went for the pottery painting in the Ann Arbor Art Center which was organised by WISE(Women in Science and Enineering) club. Although I had to walk out in the cold for about 10 to 20 minutes just to get there, it was worth. I didn't think much when I had the bowl in my hand. All I had in mind was stick to simple shapes. Eventually, I have ended up drawing hearts and I took a variety of colors but I have ended up with three colors. It was a waste but I had no choice because I can't have more than one bowl. :(

Painting the bowl reminds me of those schooling times..It has certainly brought me back to those moments where I was having my art classes, being a part of the decoration team for so SO SO many events, painting banners, painting mural, designing the first-ever shirt for the prefectorial board and also, making the decorative household things in kemahiran hidup classes. aaawwww....how I had wished that I could travel back time and re-doing all of these for one more time!

I didn't get to do much of these in UNITEN though..In the first semester, I only got to decorate the FARMERS' FAMOUS booth..That was a really memorable experience being that it was the very FIRST project that all the Sime Darbians scholars got to work together. Although the project was not completed...hahahaha.. I would not trade that experience for anything else.(^.^)I was involved in the decoration team for the KOR UNITEN GRADUATION DAY. Eventhough, it was close to the finals..we didn't bother much because we had to do it anyways. I kinda enjoyed it.

That's all I guess..Okay, this is a pretty long post..I better not spend too much time here..I have FINALS coming in a few days!!! GOSH!! :(

Here are some pictures of my-very-own-painted-bowl!





I know the first picture above is ugly..HAHAHA..too bad..time had been the limiting factor..The red paint didn't turned out as red as I wanted it to be because it looks more like orange to me. Regretted for not putting in more layers. I was happy that it turned out "okay"..some parts of the bowl were not so nice but it's free. So, no complains. XD

A really busy but fun week after exams

Finally my final exam for semester 1 is over! Yay! I have been waiting to write a post after exams but I was caught up with other stuffs. So yea, what have I been up to after exams? I was spending time with my UKM friends after the torturous week of exams for the 4 modules of 1st semester. I went out after OSPE as well. I also hanged out with my KMK sisters in Sunway Pyramid. Then, I went for a debate camp in UKM Bangi. That's basically everything that I've done after exams. Lol.

This was when we went out for a movie at KLCC and had sushi after the torturous week. I was with Cassy and Ying Xin of course and the others were Chee Yew aka Sandy, Wei Ming, Vee Chuan aka Fac. King and Yin San.

This was taken after OSPE in Pavilion. We watched movie and went to Petaling Street to have dinner. It was a long day with the apartment gang. (Isaac, Ryan, Sandy, Fac King, Wei Ming). Adeline not the KMK one, haha.. Adeline Chai to be exact because there are two 'adelines' in UKM.

This lovely picture is of course my KMK sisters! In the picture from left: Adeline, me, Yiting, Allana, Hui Yi and Cindy. Even though only 6 of us could make it but it was rather successful I thought coz it was difficult to gather the whole family. This is us camwhoring in the toilet.

Next was the debate camp which was awesome! But I don't have any pictures for that coz we were too busy debating I guess. Lol. And it was because of the debate camp, Ying Xin had to stay over at my house. Nice having guest in the house! I know what kinda respond is Pauline giving right now. ;D

Hoping to have more plans during this break. hehe

I know that I am bigger.

I have been away from home for about about 3 months now and certainly, I have felt the difference. It has been for a while since people commented anything on my size ever since I was 16 years old. I do not get many "undesirable" comments like I am getting fatter, bigger or chubbier. I was only told that I am considered short. :P

When I got here, nothing was being said about my size until a few weeks ago when a friend from the same college of mine told me that my face was chubbier compared to that when I first got here. Of course, I was shocked hoping that I heard the wrong thing but no, I didn't. I was a little disappointed but that did not troubled me for the entire day.

A week after that, I met a senior of mine in the library and the first thing he told me was that "You look different. Your face look bigger." From then onwards, I was not not hoping to hear the similar comment on my face again. Truthfully, I felt like I have gain some weight too but I have not weigh myself yet. Lets hope I do not gain a lot. It is so sad to know that I have gain weight ever since I got here. :(

After receiving those "unwanted" comments, I kept on getting more and more comments from my friends who have look at my pictures and they told me the same thing about me getting bigger in size. Gosh, is it that obvious??

Just today, when Zera was video calling with Aliff, she called me over and we chatted with Aliff for a while. Guess what Aliff told me? YES, he said that I am chubbier too. Urghh...I just hope that I won't get any double chin. Please...I shall control my food intake from now onwards. :)