End of the world? Nope, it's just 2013.

Even if it was the end of the world, I would have led my life like usual. I would have gotten my assignments done if I had any or study for exams if there was. Whatever it is, here comes 2013! :D

Again, Ling is busy enjoying herself in places I couldn't go lol so I will do the new post before she does. What went down in 2012? It was the start of my clinical years. It was also the year where I finally have something to say in my surgical history if anyone would clerked me as a patient. Yup, I went through a surgery and not many people know about this. It's just a petty thing called fibrolipoma. Met a minor accident but I wasn't injured. Went for trips during my breaks (Melaka with my KMK sisters, Fraser's Hill and Langkawi with my UKM friends). Debated in my very first international tournament. Starting to cook by myself. Knowing how to drive to Semenyih. Tried bangs for a change. Found close friends. Several ups and downs but it turned out to be okay in the end.

My new year resolutions:
1.No failures in exams anymore. That means I will be studying more often lol.
2.Speaking mandarin and improving my chinese
3.Jogging in the weekends or whenever appropriate
4.Being the filial child as much as I can. Be there for my family when I can
5.Improving my cooking skills

This list looks more reasonable that the ones last year. See so much of practicality in this one lol. Grown to be wiser and smarter. I'm going to embrace 2013 with no hate and regrets. We only live life once so don't worry it away. Do things while you can. :)

The Pioneer

It was on 15 December 2012. Finally it became a reality. Personally, an accomplishment for me. I never knew it was that difficult to start off something although I was well informed that it ain't gonna be easy. And soon, I knew lol. The process of making this real was not as smooth as I thought it would have been. Thank you to all who have helped to make this a successful event especially to my committee members and also to my seniors who trusted me on this (I bet they had sleepless nights too lol-sorry for the worries and troubles). The ups and downs were never ending. At one point, I doubted myself whether it would actually happen for real. Glad it did. :)

Being the pioneer wasn't easy but I always believe that there's the brighter side to everything. For me, it was for my juniors. People say we don't work for ourselves but we work for our children. Here it means I'm the parent instead (omg, I feel so much like a parent now. Yes, I can be very protective over people I care about lol). It may not be the right saying to depict what I really wanna say but the principle is the same.

I knew that I wasn't the best example or the best leader to be looked up upon but my intentions are clear. I failed to please everyone. I just like to get things done my way. I did try to keep my cool and learn to deal with things in a calmer manner. When I think back, I'd rather it to have this event than something else that's not gonna work. At least, I have the taste of it and soon I will need to guide my juniors on this.

It was a great feeling but definitely exhausting. In the end, what matters most was having people to enjoy on that day and gain something from it. Let's see how it goes next year. :)

In a small place called Beranang

After going through the tough times in surgery and O&G postings, it was finally time for JKM or w what they call the Medicine and Society posting. We were all posted to a place called Beranang which is kinda near Semenyih. Had a great time there although I did spend a LOT of time travelling to KL, Cheras and sometimes to Bangi. All because of a medical debate (That's another story to be told lol). 

Anyway, I've learned to understand how things work in a kampung and also how to mingle with my coursemates. I guess it was because of this posting, I started to have more friends other than those from my usual hangout friends in UKM. And yes, I will definitely remember those times here-the never ending presentations, the hot days during survey, the times in the kitchen helping out to cook, the times I went out with my friends, the pasar malam nights and of course the generosity of the villagers.:)

The intervention program group photo taken at the Balai Raya of Kampung Sungai Jai.

All of us before leaving PULAKEM (Pusat Latihan Khidmat Masyarakat UKM)

Adios JKM! Here comes my final posting for my 3rd year. Internal Medicine! :) *praying for wisdom and luck*

Can't Wait to Cook Again

Yes that's right! I am planning to do some grocery shopping later, in  about an hour from now. I miss cooking my own food and trying to replicate dishes that I miss so much. I am going to get some tofu and start cooking them for dinner and possibly lunch if I get to make it home before I get hungry...lol. I am not going to make 'Yuk Sui Tofu' which I really miss a lot because it's going to be hard to make the sauce from scratch. However, I am going to make some spicy tofu dish, Sze Chuan style, obviously from the paste itself..lol.

Alright, I can't wait to start cooking! Feeling so excited! :)

Btw, the tofu below is called 'Yuk Sui Tofu' in Cantonese and it is one of my favorite tofu dish of all time. ;)

Finals on the way...

As suggested in the title, my exams are around the corner..:(
These past few days were not the most productive moments because of these few reasons:

1. The weather was horrible. It has been up and down these past few days..cold at some days and warmer on the next. I think this has really caused most people to get sick. :/

2. I am having a really really bad flu..Not only my nose is blocked for most of time but also, I can't sleep well..That sucks a little and not to mention, I am wasting tissue papers! Can't help it, blame it on the flu..

3. I am addicted to another series, "The Walking Dead" , thanks to my friend.. watched it by skipping some parts of the episodes and now, I am up to date to the latest episode..so, in other words, I can't watched it now because there is no more to watch until the new episode airs..lol.

4. I am lazy. Well, this was because last week was torturous. Exam, quizzes and assignments were due on each  day of the week and that sure did made me sleep lesser...so, I am technically catching up on sleep as well.

Oh ok, I am going back to my assignments and studying now.. Byeeeeeeee!

The irony of how things work

Rules are rules and they are meant to be followed. Fine. That would have meant if your working hours are 8 to 5 with a lunch break from 12 to 2, you can't work before 8, after 5 and also from 12 to 2. I guess that's how the typical Malaysian office hours are. Fine. It happens at the college office, at the academic office, at the clinics and just put in short everywhere in a government office and even private companies. Fine.

But hey if that happens in all the workplaces, what happens to people who can only settle their stuff at lunch hours? I don't know if anyone feels the same as I do or maybe it's just me who only failed to make time before lunch hours or after lunch hours to settle things in all these places. :(

I wished that there will be shifts for lunch hours so that it's more convenient for people who can deal with their stuff during these hours. Wouldn't that also ease the workload of that particular office or department too? Since they can settle my part and move on to the next after settling mine.

I had this experience once where I had to wait for 10 mins just because I was there at 1.50. Fine. I have class at 2 but I had to hold my patience. I tried telling them that if it was okay to just do it for me and said sorry too because I know it's their rights to have their break. Instead he said no and gave me a lecture about how much they've worked and told me to read the notice which says, "Waktu rehat: 12-2." Fine. But what disappointed me wasn't that, it was when I saw him walking back to the corner to watch TV. So, he continued watching TV in the office just to make me wait till 2. I wouldn't have been so pissed if I didn't see that. He actually made me wait for 10 mins because he wanted to make use of his time watching TV till 2.

I just thought it was ridiculous. The irony of how this whole system works just saddens me. Just saying.

Carta Hati

This song is nice! Honestly, I don't usually listen to Malay songs but of course, I have a few exceptions and this is one of them. I came across this song when I saw one of my schoolmates posted up a video of her own cover which she sang it pretty well so I started google-ing the lyrics and found this! The lyrics is so sweet. Local music can be as nice as other music from other big regions. We just need to give our own music a shot to make its' way there. :)

Halfway there

I am officially 2.5 years away from my ever long course! No retakes please! I thought I was a free bird after exams but things came up. Oh well, you gotta do what you gotta do. It's an approved proposal of a debate tournament. Yes, will be hosting one soon. It's gonna be big! Just bigger than what we initially planned. As for plans with friends, I will most likely be making my mark on the sands of Langkawi. ;)

Updates!

Clearly, both my sis and I were busy with our own studies and stuffsssss and that explained the emptiness of this blog of ours..:(

Anyway, I am here now to update some of the things going on in my life.  I bought a new laptop recently..a dell ultrabook..not so fancy as any macbook but so far so good! :)

Here's a picture of it:

 I was busy with lots of assignments, projects and midterms these couple of weeks. Just like any other sleep deprived college student, I was draining myself with caffeine to stay awake.

Oh ya, one more thing, I got a new hair cut last Friday and these were the pictures  to show the difference in length:

                                    BEFORE                                                                        AFTER


I feel so much healthier with the new hair because I finally got rid of all the split ends and dryness of my hair!

That's all for now! :)

Wind and Mr.Ug

Found this amazing video on mobius strip. I think this is worth sharing! :D

Pat's Cooking

I have been cooking this few days. Attempted to prepare mee soup with rice cooker. Ever since, every meal I make has always been solely on rice cooker. Lol. So, here goes my second chapter of Pat's Cooking. :P

The anchovies my mum bought for me. Hehe..

My third attempt of making sui tan. Okay I guess..lol

Trying out the anchovies with rice. Nice.:)

Pat's Mee Soup. XD

Pat's Mantou. XD

Yummy!

The messy pot.

Ta-daa!

Again, I would be happy to get advice and if possible recipes too! *A hint to Ling* ;)

Who's cooking? :P

Yay! It's finally Raya so that means holidays for me! And guess what? I have been trying to cook for the past few days in my college and it's for real. That was my first time making a meal. (excluding the times I helped my mum and Ling out) And yes, it is as shown in the picture above. Rice and the-supposed-sui-tan. (steamed egg) The rice was a bit wet. Too much water I guess. As for the egg..ermm.. I didn't know I was supposed to add water so yea, it didn't turned out to be as smooth as it should have been. Lol. Oh well..better try next time then. Ate it all up with a tin of Ayam Brands sardin in olive oil, whatever that's called. Hahaha... basically wraps up what I did for my first cooking.

Then, I decided to make up for my failed attempt. So, here goes nothing. My second attempt was still not so good. :P

 The rice was too wet. Too much of water again. 

 Decided to try making omelette this time. Turned up to be tasteless. 

 The back-up dish to compensate for the tasteless dinner. Not forgetting the soy sauce and pepper. Lol.

Finally, nothing was left in the end. *burps* 

More attempts to come and I believe there's always room for improvement. If there's anyone who is willing to take me for cooking lessons, I would be happy to have you to teach me. ;) 

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Even though I am feeling the pinch of clinical years now, I still think it's nice to take a break once in awhile. Medical students have no life. Hmm.. yea kinda true actually. Lol. Oh well, things are much more different now. Everything you do in the hospital appears to be knowledge and will be tested. Case write up is a headache. All I do is sit and type and of course refer to books for references. Finally, got into my nerd self after so long. Ward round is like a nightmare for us. It is like being interrogated in front of the whole team consisting of the most knowledgeable people around, the professors to the least prominent people around, the medical students. Sometimes, we don't get interrogated so it's luck really.

Just did my long case assessment and it wasn't as pretty as I wished it would have been. Lol. Knowing who was going to assess me, I have already predicted the worst that could happen. I knew it was just the matter of how hard it will really hit me and how long can I hold back my tears. So yea, it hit me really hard and the worst just happened. I broke into tears. >.<

It was unintentional. Maybe I was too sensitive. Maybe I am a crybaby. Maybe I was just weak. And whatever you wanna call it, that was only so much I can take. I know this is not the worst of the worst encounters I will ever face. I know I should have been stronger than this for the worst is yet to come. I just hope that I will be prepared.

After all, what doesn't kill you makes you stonger. :)

old is old

Started off by watching A Cinderella Story, wanting to talk my sister and listening to Hilary Duff's songs, I ended up catching up with old friends whom I have not been keeping in touch with for a very long time. Well, I even remembered the long forgotten lyrics of Hilary Duff's song. All the memories in my high school years just came flashing through my mind and all I wanted was to re-lived them but old is old. Memories will retain as memories. Flash backs remind us of our old selves, our naive selves, and perhaps the our used-to-be happier selves. And they are all once upon a time ago. :)

Happy July 4th!

My first time playing fireworks! Happy Independence Day, US! :D

You've got a friend in me

Someone who would be willing to listen to all your complaints even if it's the smallest detail in your life. Someone who you could talk to and not be embarrassed about your true feelings. Someone who knows you too well that they would notice when you are really depressed even through that big fat smile on your face. Someone who you wouldn't mind sharing your things with even when you need to share it with them. Someone who knows when to pat you on your shoulder or give you a hug. Someone so thoughtful and sometimes it makes you believe that kind people really do exist. Someone who would stand up for you no matter what. Someone who would be willing to give honest opinions and not be afraid to hurt you because they know you would not. Someone who seeks for you just to tell you crazy stories and be willing enough to do silly things with you. Someone who would be willing to share their problems with you because they trust you so much. Someone who you can really count onto and you know they would have done the same thing in a particular situation. Someone who is proud and happy enough to call you their friend. :)

Friends, no?

Today, I am officially done with the semester. I am not so proud of the essay but it is completed! Yay! So, I was indulging myself with Grey's Anatomy for the past few weeks now and still ongoing..haha! For the past few days, I looked at the my more recent pictures and I didn't like my hair..not that it is awful but it was bad for me. Looking at the split ends and the worn-off color on my hair due to the dye several years ago, I decided to cut them off sometime this week. Ok, those were the updates. Now, back to what I want to write about in this post. Well, I was thinking about my enemies and was not able to name one person. It was probably because I didn't think they were hostile to me in any ways. In most of the bad occurrences or happenings, I find myself being the one who apologizes and forgives. Truth to be told, I can never hate someone for so long. Even if I dislike them for some reason, I would just opt to avoid and keep some distance. If something bad took place between any of my friend and I, the worse that could ever happen was not talking for days, weeks or months and that was it, things would eventually get better and we start talking. Unfortunate enough for me, I have one of my friendships being at the halt state for more than a year already. Not that I wanted it too but I think my friend had stopped calling me a friend. Although I am not emotionally affected by it for quite a long time already, I still wonder if she have thought of us and the memories, stories and times that we shared. I did my part in trying to salvage our friendship but maybe, it was not as effective as I thought it would be. I wondered if she would say Hi to me at least if we ever met. I mean wouldn't it be rude if she doesn't? She can annoy me by not even trying to be nice in any way but nothing was ever going to change the fact that we were friends at some point of our lives and those times can't be erased just like that. Sure, you can say time would change things for the better but how long? I still want to know about what was going on in her life and I'd lie if I say I don't care. One thing that I really hope is that we could at least meet or if the worst have to happen, I hope that we would end it in a mutual way rather than just one-sided.

New look

For these past few days, I was trying to get a new look for this blog but I can't just take the old template out..It was supposed to be easy but I guess it is default now..Oh well, I think it looks simple enough now. Now that the semester is coming to an end, I will be having some free time before my work starts. I have a lot in things in mind that I want to do. For instance : -exercising (purpose is to lose weight) -reading some nice books -shopping (for summer wear..everything is just so hot now and most of my clothes aren't suitable) -watching Grey's Anatomy (this in inevitable..lol..maybe I will try to find mai-hime and watch it again) -cooking (purpose is to save money as well) -a little bit of travelling (to somewhere nearby..not too far) -catching up with family and friends I guess that is all for the time being but I am planning to get at least most of these things done. Oh ya, I have a wonderful news today! I finally got a B+/A- range for my essay in which I only spent one whole day on it..and I do mean literally one whole day, 24 hours. Alright then, that is all I want to write on this post. Shall keep updating later. :)

It has been a while..maybe too long

The last time I posted something on this blog was like months ago and now, everything in blogspot has changed...A bit more tidy but alien to me, obviously! Oh well, life goes on and so does my blog. This semester has been the least stressful and surprisingly, a slow semester as compared to the previous two semesters. A lot of things were going on and hence, no postings from me..only from my sister..and I was the one who dragged her into blogging with me! Sorry, sis! I have been addicted to Grey's Anatomy lately and I have finished season one and in the middle of season two now. Watch it if you like drama or if you like to hear about any interesting medical conditions and advises about life which sometimes you might find them relevant to your's. Oh ya, I found a job as well..my very first paying job after tutoring for a day..haha! I am going to help out with orientation for the new international students in the university. I can't wait to start, to be honest! That's really all I can think of writing on this blog..:P Alright then, time for me to sleeppppppp. :)

A new start

Here I am in HUKM for almost a month already! I got the excitement of facing the real things rather than medical books only after a couple of weeks here. I blamed the papers I had to take during the holidays. Probably that's why the transition took way longer in me myself. Not to mention that I am really glad for passing the papers at the end because the process of going through them all over again was like a painful heartache. Unimaginable and I will probably remember this for the rest of my life. No doubt. I sincerely wanna thank those who helped me through this. Thanks really! :)

I even managed to take part in a debate tournament last week. The first international tournament for me. A great one. :) Not like I accomplished anything there nor was I satisfied with my own performance, I guess it's the experience that counts. Yea, whatever. Haha.

So, back to how I feel about being n this whole new environment, ermm.. okay I guess. I don't know how to say this but I guess a bad memory will always remain a scar deep within yourself. No matter how much you wanna disguise it, it's still there to remind you about the bad stuff. People say clinical years are much, much, much more different and all. To me, I really wish I could make it through even though I was terrible in my pre-clinical years. Take this as a challenge and a test to better myself. For better, for worse, I am here for whatever it is.:)

The Man

I'm probably not the best person to refer to when it comes to English Literature but I gotta admit that there was one point in my life where I actually had a thing for poems and also for those beautiful pieces of work. I still remember some of the poems and short stories we've learned in secondary school. Yes, I do. And after reading this, you'll probably be like, "What?!"

Call me a nerd. Well, maybe I am one after all. Lol. Because we all remember interesting stuffs. It's in my head because I thought it is really meaningful. I kinda held on to some of the values in it and even till today, I still try to. :)

It is a poem from a father to his son. If by Rudyard Kipling. Go google it! It certainly brought back memories of my old school days. 

It's that simple

Okay maybe not. Ever gotten this encounter when people just don't get what you're saying. Probably due to miscommunication. Maybe I made it complicated but it seems some people actually do get what I meant. Guess it's just culture gap?

How about an assignment which was given to someone else to be done turns out to be not the kind of result you wanted it to be? Not that I wanna criticize but it's really bad. I'm being really honest to say it's bad but I didn't exactly tell the person directly that it's bad. Haha. So, what should I do? Do I just take it as it is? Or do I do my own changes so that it looks decent? Or do I tell him nicely that it's not what I wanted? Anyhow, someone is gonna face the consequences whether it's just one person or two persons and probably the whole group.

Time out

Ever felt like there's so many things to do in a short period of time? Yea, it's crazy I know. But oh well, we just need to do all of them so here comes time management. I'm not gonna talk about time management in this post though.

Ever thought why there's always an end to almost everything? End of the day, end of the world (people think it's 2012 but we'll just see), end of a relationship, end of the show, end of a life, etc. Nothing seems to last forever and probably that's why we learn how to appreciate things better so that we will enjoy every bit of it. Not all that bad after all is it?

Ever felt like you're not good enough? And why is it only you who is facing all the troubles in the world? I guess a lot of felt this way before but there's always another view to this. A lot I mean A LOT of us do at some point of time feel this way. This means you're not alone. :)

The Little Things

We have always lived our lives with expectations whether it's with our own expectation on ourselves or with others' expectations on you yourself. With all these expectations, things could get really tough especially when you don't live up to it. Hahaha.. But the point is, are these expectations the things we hope for ourselves? Twisted but think about it. ;)

We get so caught up with these expectations sometimes and we forget about the little things around us. Those little things around you would have probably mean your family and friends. Yea, they seem too little and unimportant for a moment when you had to deal with your own problems in life which seem a lot bigger than anything else. Yea, I know how it feels like.

I'm just saying that probably we should start looking for what we really want in our lives before it's too late. I wouldn't say I have done enough to appreciate those little things or found what I really like to do. Sometimes, it takes one to learn it the hard way. I probably haven't seen the big picture and when I do, it's probably the turning point in my life.

And now this post took away on a serious note. Lol. Life is short. There's a Chinese version of saying this, just translate this, "In our lives, how many decades do we have?" Yes directly translate it. I would have translated it to Cantonese because I got this from a TVB series and my mum kept saying it. Anyhow, it means the same in any language.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Yes, it is the 'LOVE' day today!! :)
Anyway, this will be a short post because I have an exam tomorrow!

For the past few days, the 'Mulan' song was singing in my head..then I started listening to other songs in that movie..later, a friend suggested more Disney songs. And here goes, the 'Aladdin' love song in which I find it very suitable for today. <3





Enjoy the video below too y'all! :)

Busier than ever

It is pretty obvious that I don't write as often as I have used to..and honestly, it has been like this ever since the last semester. I blame the amount of work load that I have..though entirely was my fault for not allocating some amount of time for writing..lol..for most of the days, the time that I have besides going to classes were always filled up with something to do..projects, assignments and quizzes..not to mention I think I might be sleep deprived at times...that is not surprising because it was expected. At least, I got something going on and thus, being busy is not all that bad. After all, it is a good sign is it?

Just for updates, I am going to have my exams from next week onwards till spring break..and then, I will be going to Guetamala. Not going there for fun obviously..it is an international service trip organized by the rotaract club in the UofM. Can't wait to go there and get myself a handful of experiences. :)

Alright, back to my Chinese characters. bye! :)

21!

21 is not just any number. To think of it, 21 in blackjack is a win. Without the number 21, forever 21 will not exist. Besides, 21 is practically the legal age for a lot of things and turning 21 means that you have lived for more than 2 decades!

Yes, I am 21 this year. Not so excited about the increment in terms of my age but I do hope that it will still be counting! :D
It's 10th of January now in Malaysia and 9th in the US..So, I am younger than my sister now. Sorry ching! :P

Glad that I have called my sister first!! She made this video of us and it was so touching for me though I find it childish..haha!

Thanks, Ching! Happy Birthday! You will always be my number one. :)

I wanna believe in it. :)

So here goes another year for me and Ling. How do I feel? Not very excited about getting older. 21? It's only the age for me to be able to vote and go gamble. Lol. Don't think I would ever gamble anyway. And here comes commitments and responsibilities. :/ Can I stay as 20?

Still, I wanna believe in things children believe in. Fairytales and happy endings will do. I wanna still be naive and childish. :P

I guess I sound quite irresponsible saying this but it's just life. Gotta move on in life and make the best out of it! One more thing I learned is that the best people in my life will always stick to me no matter what and for that I wanna thank you all. Thank you for being there for me and also for making my day especially on this day. This is sincerely from the bottom of my heart. I know I'm not a very expressive kinda person but really I mean it. Thank you! :)

And of course, Happy birthday again Ling! :D