Birthdays?

Throughout my life, I have not been able to celebrate my birthday with me having to cut the cake alone, blow the candles alone, and make a wish alone. This is because I will always have my twin sis with me doing all those routines. Before we went separate ways, I must admit that I have sometimes secretly hope that I could have my own birthday cake without sharing it with anyone else.

When I got to know that I could not spend this special day with my sis next year, I find it hard to believe..I cannot imagine this special day being spent without her by my side..she has somehow became a part of me all these years.

I was actually sad to think that she might not spend this special day of ours with me anymore in the future and perhaps, our birthday next year marks the beginning of our separation. When I told my friends about this, they were surprised and later, they were not interested in knowing it..I know that it might be annoying to reiterate the fact..

I soon got to know that one of my friends, A would not be able to go back to his hometown to celebrate his girlfriend's bday too..he was devastated as well..I remembered that I told them again that I will not celebrate with my sis again..another friend of mine ,B was like, 'Celebrate with her earlier la.' I wanted to tell her that my sis would not be back too soon and that by the time she comes back, I will be gone..but then, I kept my mouth shut knowing that she was irritated by it already. A told her back by saying 'There is a reason for that day to be called a birthday.'

His words really had an impact on me. I realized that birthdays are meant to be spent with our loved ones. A understands my situation as he knows how it feels like not spending this day with someone whom he really cares about.

I, however, must accept that this day will soon come. It just that time will tell when it comes. When this time comes, I should be ready to let go and move on with my life as an individual and not as a pair any longer.