The Can't-haves

It was the usual day of going to work in a workplace so mundane that many had left. It had her thinking for some time, thinking whether it was time. The time to leave the place for the better as they had always told her about how it was greener on the other side. Better payroll, healthier workplace and probably a fairer chance for opportunities, but all these were not guaranteed. Being the less of a risk taker person, she never dared to make such drastic change in her life.

She knew there was a couple of things to consider before making one of those lifetime changing decisions. First, her family and second, herself. When it came to family, they were her everything. She would want to spend most of her time with them even if it was just for a meal at home. Home was the one of her getaway places. A cozy place where all troubles in life seemed to go away for that moment allowing her to be herself finally. She was always on make-up wearing the outfits for the people. Everybody loved her being beautiful as she was a pleasant lady to gaze at. Never was she herself in any way in that place.  Nobody knew what she really wanted to be. Plus, nobody would have figured that she was a lazy girl with no intentions to hold a brush or mascara. She liked her bare-faced look wearing tanks or big-sized t-shirts, paired with her home shorts. Home was the place where no acting was required out of her. Being herself was being loud and speaking her mind. Feeling comfortable was lying down on the couch while watching television. The life itself was luxurious without anything extravagant. She decided that she would rather stay here for her family and also for herself to live happy.

He on the other side of the world, had problems from within. Always felt lesser than anyone else. Never had the guts to speak up or even speak to strangers. He wished he had someone to talk to but not just anybody. He wanted someone who could speak in the same context and more importantly without the language barrier. Nobody understood how it felt like living in a world where you could physically fit in but not in language terms. He was the one who never mastered his own mother tongue. Always trying to catch up with the language which made him felt so far away from everyone else. Hoping that someday he could finally bring himself to speak with confidence. Someday he will make something big out of his life.