You won't know if you don't try..

Cherry just spoke to me on the phone..we speak about anything ranging from food, friends, school to guys..she told me that she had some feelings for him. I am not quite sure if the feeling she meant was 'love' or simply just a 'crush'..She kept me updated with all her stories about him and her..

From the intonations and expressions, I could tell that she really likes to talk about him..When I see those expressions of hers, I remembered the similar situations which I have gone through..I know exactly how she felt and what she meant..I wanted to tell her not to put too much hope in any 'gona-or not gona-be-relationship' but I don't have the guts to tell her because I know how it feels like when somebody disagrees with you and says all those crap that you don't wana hear at all..all you wana hear is sweet stuffs and the word 'agree', 'go ahead', 'why not?', etc. This damn feeling can't be remove and be control..because it is just unquestionable, unjustifiable,...( I could go on forever with a thesaurus)..

Today, she called me again..she told me that the guy was planning to buy a present for another friend of his(who is a girl as well) and asked her opinion about it..she responded to him but she was rather pissed as she felt that he told her on purpose...maybe just an act to make her jealous..Then, she told me that she thinks that he is not what she is looking for..she told me that she has regretted for even dipping herself deeper for him when she knows that he will most probably not be the right one for her already..but then, a question immediately popped into my mind; 'you won't know until you have tried it, right?'

I know how it feels like when you think 'this-is-gona-happen','this-is-what-I-have-been-looking-for!', etc..However, it hurts even more when you know that he is just not so into you..he only contacts you when he needs help..I may not have been one of those lucky girls who have been in a relationship or those who have found their special someone but I have indeed experienced a situation in which I thought I have fallen for him..but..I realized that I was not really into him when he expressed his feelings to me..I just don't know why..it is an instant feeling that I had..When I told him how I felt about him, he cannot accept the fact..he even sent me messages again and again asking for my explanation and expressing his dissatisfaction(maybe hatred)..Now, I find him childish though I really appreciate his courage to express his feelings..hahax..at least, he had tried to sort things out and now, he knows that nothing is gona ever work out between the both of us..

Whatever happens, we should just move on with our lives..no matter how hard it is for us to take it or simply to agree it..why don't we look at it as an experience instead of a regret? Like I have said, you won't know until you have tried it, right?