You Look So Familiar

Lately, I have heard a lot of, "I think I have seen you before." A few people had said that to me already in the last two weeks itself. Well of course, those people were some new faces to me and I just happened to know them for the first time.

I begin to wonder whether I am one of the common faces in the streets. Maybe I'm just plain ordinary and there are many people out there who look like me. Gosh.. Then they continued asking me about me whether I have an older sis who is studying in their place. A teacher asked whether I was from her school. There was another person who asked whether I once worked in a particular place. Lol...

The most unbelievable thing I heard was that I look like an Indonesian pop star called Agnes Monica. I'll take that as a compliment.. XD. But I gotta admit though that I don't think I look like her at all. I posted her picture along in this post just in case if you wanna know how she looks like.

Weird huh? Dejavu maybe...:P

I'm Still Thinking About It

I think this is a very meaningful picture. It looks better with a brighter light as a background though. This picture was taken on March 17, 2010 at 6.51pm.. lol.. In this picture, one of the hands is mine and the other is Fiona's. It was taken in KMK, at the lecturers' compound. As meaningful as it may seems, this picture actually tells a lot of unforgettable moments.

It reminds me that I was once in KMK, walking around, chit-chatting with a friend and enjoying the time left for us to be in KMK. There were a few things I wanted to do before leaving KMK for good. I've always wanted to go inside one of the lecturers' homes and I did..so proud to say this..XD

Anyway, I really miss being there even though I know it sounds a little silly. If my life was a book and the times I had spent in KMK was a chapter.. this chapter may not be the longest one but definitely an interesting one. There was one time when I had a really bad stomachache and thank God that I was lucky enough to have two friends who were willing to accompany me to the clinic in the middle of the night. There was also other times that I felt grateful like when I had this dreadful skin disease, there were actually so many people who were worried for me. Some even suggested ideas for curing it. I, genuinely was touched.

It has been like a month already that I have left KMK and I'm still thinking about it. :)

Thank you, Sun!

Oh my god! I saw those white flakes on my skin. It has started-my skin started peeling off. I knew that I was going to face that anytime soon as I had got myself sunburned during the sports carnival a few days back. I was afraid that I would turn darker but I was redder and now, the worse has come. The period in which when the skin starts to peel off is no doubt my most hated period. I know it is a good thing to know that my skin is finally going to return to its original colour but I don’t like it. It look as though I was undergoing some transformation and believe me seeing patches of different colour tones in your skin is not as nice as you thought it would be. I don’t know if you will feel the way that I do unless you are a person who really cares about the outlook like me. I was dumb enough for not applying any sun block knowing that this might occur again. For me, presenting a good image gives a better edge in everything and everyone around me.

One thing is that the sunburn was worth as we had so much fun in the carnival and the experience of being in a team once again like I have used to in school was relived. Although this time it involved sports unlike those days in school where I was in the prefectorial board and the performances in schools, I could still feel the joy and togetherness being in a team again. Even though back then during my schooling days, I have only work with girls as I was in an all-girl-school, I still find working as a team is fun. The spirit of it is there and that I could tell. The sunburn was worth after all. Thinking of it that way makes me feel much better as well when I was looking at myself in the mirror.

I had much more severe sunburn when I had participated in the National Day in the age of 14. My skin was totally dry and my lips were affected. Like now, my skin did peeled off too but before this, it was not white flakes but it was greyish/black..haha..I felt like I was roasted or cooked. Back then was also worth, I guess. With all the running around, remembering the steps, gossiping, missing classes for 3 months, thinking that my friends and I would be on TV and meeting new people really add up to the fun at that point of time. I have to admit that this was worth as well. Although getting sunburned is bad for me, it does remind me a lot about many other things and fortunately, those things are good old memories. So, every bad has its good too! =D
*For those who got yourselves sunburned just like I have, just don’t let it get into you.*

Lee Chong Wei

I was disappointed that Lee Chong Wei lost in the Thomas Cup badminton tournament. But still, I am proud to be a Malaysian. I am not very into sports kind of a person but I kinda got into this badmintonn tournament all of a sudden. It was because of this match, I got this perspective that nothing is impossible in life.

Even when I watched him losing to Lin Dan in the Olympics back then, I had the same feeling. I was cheering for him all the way but he didn't win at the end. Sad but proud. For me, it will remain as a bitter sweet lesson for Malaysia.

Well, every soul in Malaysia was hoping that he would win the Thomas Cup. The stadium was filled with the locals. All shouting and screaming their lungs out. I wasn't there but I watched it on TV. I don't know whether I did hear that right but I think I heard them screaming out his name. Wow! That was the burning spirit of the Malaysians in the stadium. Every Malaysian regardless of the difference in their skin colour came together to cheer for Malaysia.

Indirectly, Lee Chong Wei has brought unity to the Malaysians. It was only for things like this, the people finally came together as one. Although he has lost in those games, it is undeniable that he is a great badminton player. After all, he is the No.1 badminton player! XD

It is all thanks to him that Malaysia could achieve such accomplishments. Hopefully, he will continue to make us proud in the future. He is still a hero to all Malaysians!

Different Personalities

Once a person told me that I am not the only actor in the drama called 'Life'. It is very true indeed. In this world, we learn to live in a community and in order to live in harmony, we tolerate with others. We are all not the same because we are special in our own ways. Even if two individuals are said to be physically alike, there is no way they are similar in everything. That includes identical twins. XD

People believe that horoscopes tell personalities. And also, one's luck everyday in every aspects that you could possibly think of, love, family, career and the list goes on and on. However, there are some of us who do not believe this horoscopes. At least there are some of us who still buy it, that is people like me. :)

I have to admit that it is not entirely true or accurate at times but it applies sometimes. I think my horoscope describes my character and traits well enough. But still, horoscopes shouldn't be the guide to be used in judging other people.

Not only horoscopes are used to explain personalities, there are other beliefs too. Believe or not, it is said that your blood group tells what sort of a person you are. That is what the Japanese believe. Even birthdays and names are believed to be part of the descriptions of yourself. Whether you trust these things or not, there should be a little truth in it. Otherwise, why do people come up with such theories?

But then again, we should be able to tell other people's personalities by interacting with them. Most importantly, we are the ones who know ourselves better than anyone else. So, to believe or not? That's up to you.

The Remote Control

I hope that life is a television and that I have the remote control. With the remote control, I can choose to watch what I like and not watch what I detest. I can always satisfy myself with the programmes in the TV because I will only choose my favourite TV shows, dramas, movies and sitcoms. I can opt to not watch anything and switch off the TV and also, adjust the volume or the colour according to my preferences. If I have the remote control, I will get to choose when to play, pause and stop the dvd player. If only I need not share the remote control with anyone else and have it all to myself. If only I could have the TV be working everytime I watch it. Then, I will want to watch the TV for the rest of my life and want it to be the LIFE that I want. So, can I have the remote control? =D

Embracing My Tradition and Culture

I am a Chinese but not all that 'Chinese'. Well, I consider myself a 'banana' for not knowing how to communicate in Mandarin. There are people who regard people like me as a disgrace to the Chinese community. It's saddening to know that. T_T

However, I feel proud to be a Chinese though. After watching Ip Man, I got this feeling like I actually do belong to my own roots. No matter after watching the 1st or the 2nd Ip Man movie, I always get this very amazing feeling. Both movies were in Cantonese, a dialect that I am fond of actually. I was glad that it was in Cantonese or else, I wouldn't really get the whole meaning of the movie. FYI, some subtitles suck and I mean it.

While some people find it tough speaking in English, I find it so hard to even think of a Chinese word to fit in the sentence I have in my mind. While some people feel embarassed participating in English class, I quit the Mandarin class in my primary school after attending a few classes only. While some people feel pathetic for having a very weak command of English, I feel embarassed for not even knowing my own language. I realize that I am more of a loser compared to those who have tried hard in mastering other languages.

I gotta admit that I wasn't brought up in a totally Chinese-speaking family. But then again, I do practise my tradition and culture like most Chinese families. Chinese New Year is a big event in my family. I like to know more about my culture. I have interest in knowing the history of my own race too. It's just that I felt all these made me more like a Chinese. :)

Due to that, I'm still trying to pick up Mandarin. I really wonder how long will I take to finally able to speak Mandarin. I really wonder..haha.. XD Most young people don't want to embrace their own tradition and culture. Honestly, I don't wanna be like them. I think everyone should be proud of their tradition and culture. It defines one's background. So, be happy and grateful of who you are!

Toy vs Drink

Imagine that you are 4 years old and your mum tells you that you can pick anything in the mall for yourself, what will you want? Maybe most of us will run to the kids' department or more specifically the toy section to have a look and pick the best Hot Wheels car, Barbie doll or anything that seems attractive..

There were many times that my bro, my sis and I did that but there was one day that I remembered until today..that was the day that I made the other turn and that is I went to the food and beverages department instead. I chose a Vitagen drink over any toy that I could get that day. I could remember that I chose the purple one or the grape flavoured one..haha..my bro and my sis was shocked to see me choosing a Vitagen drink over any toy like what they have chose..they called me dumb and stupid at that point of time..My mum on the other hand said that my choice was a better one than theirs..Being proud that my mum praised me, I didn't change my mind by putting that tiny bottle of Vitagen back in its place. I took it and my mum paid for it.

After a few minutes, I had finished the drink but my siblings were playing with their toy. I watched them played and regretted for not getting a toy for myself. I thought that they were right after all for choosing something that last longer..unlike mine which last for just a moment..

When I think of it now, I felt like that choice of mine wasn't that bad after all. It will be my choice if I was older, wiser and more mature. Will I choose a toy over a drink today? NO. I will choose the Vitagen drink and not be ashamed of it. I will be satisfied and not regret for what I have chosen. I won't even have a second thought of choosing another thing if this happens to me again. Maybe today, I will choose to buy clothes, bags or shoes instead of any toy in that mall..XD

Her Story

I thought of utilizing my time wisely during this 'nothing-to-do' period, so I came up with this idea of posting this.

I'm proud of her. She has done a lot to make it this far. I may not fully understand all the times and experiences she had been through but I'm glad to know that whatever she did paid off. Congrats sis!

Being her twin, I have always been by her side until last year when she had to start studying in Uniten. We shared most of our lives together. When we were young, we used to play dolls, , watch tv and lots more. Almost everything we did was done together. Technically, I can say that I have watched her grew in time.

In school, she was someone who gets everything done before the deadline. I see her as a person who has the guts to make her stand and also, someone with very strong determination in achieving success. Sometimes, she happened to be loud and truthful in the wrong situation but I got to admit that I like it. She did the things that I didn't dare to do. It is nice having someone like that around.

As a sister, she is definitely doing her job perfectly. She is caring, loving, protective and everything else that I can use to describe how good she is. We shared our thoughts and views on the things happening in our own lives. We even talked about random stuffs which made us wondered how we managed to talk until that extent.

Now that she is half way to finally make it a dream come true, I hope that she will be able to make it a reality. All the best!

Finally...

Finally, Sime Darby approved my appeal to further my education in the University of Michigan. I am just glad that I know where am I heading to now. No more thinking about where will I end up in and I have to admit that I was not as thrilled as I was when I first got a place in U Mich. The feeling was just ok-ok or so-so..maybe too much of waiting kinda washed the excitement away. Well, it is done for me but not for my other friends who are still battling for their wants. I wish you all the best! I know how it feels like being in your positions, really. For the past two days, I was busy with the payment for the deposit. The deadline was yesterday and with sime's recent approval, I have to get things done very fast. I have only one day to settle the deposit. Honestly, I was very blur, confused, frustrated and if this continues, I will go crazy..haha..Well, this is just the beginning. I am yet to see more stuffs like what my other friends are going through now. For short, I can just hope for everything to go on fine and smoothly. Thank you, YSD! Good luck, everyone! =D


Have a look at this link (I just want to make myself feel excited about going to michigan):
http://web.law.umich.edu/AdobeFlash/a2flash/A2flashOct08.html